I don't know why i don't feel any happiness at all..

Year 2009 is ending , Christmas and New Year is coming. but yet , the atmosphere of happy occasion isn't taking any effect on me..
Perhaps this year Christmas will be like the other ones in the past... although i thought it will be something different from the past .. to my dismay.. nope.. it remains the same..

i realize that from October onwards, my blog's entry is getting lesser and lesser.. i wonder why?