knock into my senses




seriously, i dont know what should i blog about recently as there are many things up in my mind.

each time i log into my account, i will think of what to blog 1st and stare at my comp for awhile
then i log out again. this happen a few times. Really many things and questions i have been asking myself lately.

i start to find out that my life or i should put it as social circle is so small . and the things i can do is so limited. i dont know. i really dont know.

perhaps is my own problem. i stick to my own way, my old self. i found out im really stubborn, whatever i want means i must get it.
i realise i have been drinking the same flavour of bubble for that more than 5 years. (blue coral) and the way i use the interact with others. and so many other things.
mayb recently i have change abit. i can feel that. but im still wondering whter that change is a good one or a bad one. must i subjected to changes? i dont know that too.

i really want to drink. drink the hell out of me, n forget myself , everything just for the moment when im drunk. i will be happy. there is really too many things in my head that i cant get out.

i cant find pple to drink with. drinking alone is way too boring. anyone can help?

i just want to have all the fun i can get . but this dont seem to be happening.