reali truly... indeed

i wan to become heavier n bigger in size.. thou for the past one yr.. i hv put on weight and my muscles did grow bigger.. n i did gain abit of weight.. but thats all not enuff leh.. i wan more !! haha.. bigger n heavier.. now my weight is abt 57.5kg. my ideal weight is 60 and above sia.. when can i reach that target leh.. lol.. thou results are slowly revaeling.. im gonna gym gym gym.. train train train..

who will be my motivation? lol .. very quite some time i hv been tinking abt this gal.. how can i confess it to her? will she find ridiculous? i hardly see her leh.. she is wad i wan.. she is wad i need.. but .. how can i let her know.. reali a headache leh,, i still got one last paper on thursday. hope i can make it lor.. lol.. im trying to get close to her.. but it seems hard man.. no chance was given to mi .. she oways so busy.. perhap.. im no one close to her yet.. thats y.. i msg her oso nv reply most of the time.. but its okie la.. at least still got reply.. at least i know wads going on wif her n wads she is tinking.. luckily there is such thing AS BLOG.. can go read wad she update.. haha.. tats where i can get to know her tinking n stuff. lol.. it does hlp mi alill.. at least i msg her,, n show her my concern.. nv reply nvm,... at least she will know i care abt her lo..