life is so unpredictable................


so many things cant be foresee .. (e.g). at this moment you be on top of the world, the other second, u maybe on the other side.. you maybe single for now.. but who knows the next day u might fall in love and get a girlfriend/boyfriend. death can come in so quickly that nobody will expect it to be...

ooohooo... im back here on the dot. 1 month passed.. anything great happen? well i should say there are ups and downs...

 firstly i will say about school, i just withdraw from UOW.. planning to transfer to  UOL. either business management or econs and finance. well , i just hope i make the right decision this time and not waste any more time any money :)

personal life, well, i manage to contact someone back .. didnt contact for almost 2 years. i find the period weird thou.. time flies, i didnt expect it to be two years.. since then i have been going to mediacorp studio to catch OMG live.. my friend tgt with her group.. (CJ crew) and the best thing. they are in the FINALS!!! catching them live again next week.. hoho!
seems like i contact her back in the right time :p

So Far So Good... But.......



2nd of day of class im feeling urrrg! so stress !!! all codes codes codes.. C++ i know nuts about it... 3hrs of lecture can be a killer but luckily i did manage to find some friends .. surprisingly all of them are girls.. first time man. wahahah! well.. well well i wonder how the future will be like .. 2 days so much things to digest.. god.. i need more capacity for my brain and more time pls!!!!!!

will look for fun in school . if not .. haha.. can die.

hello im back... wahahahahha!



kinda busy recently.. hard to travel to cck to work nxt will be expo..mygod! this week was sort of a fun week luh.. lol..
i kinda lost touch of what i wanna blog.. hah. nth much happen... ohwell, this will be the last week for me to enjoy till school starts on this coming monday.. not very excited about it.. if there is school.. means there will be exams.. what is there to ne excited about. haha. one thing is that, i will get to know more ppl . thats for sure...

this month over spent.. cause i bought a new notebook for school.. though it is within my budget. haha.. but this amount of money can be spent on more other things. rather than one? NO? haha. well. i guess i will just stop here.. i'm running out of points to write.. going for movie ltr..


will come back soon. Ciaos!

random post.

i know and i think i can feel you are sad. i wont push you to tell me. but i still want you to smile and be happy..



im so tired today! ciaos

dream house 1

this one is located at kellock rd.. this one is WOW.. big pool with great indoor facilites.. hmm.. i actually went to see the 3rms showroom.. well. not bad i can say.. but the prize of this .. haha.. 1.8m SGD.. when will i ever get to earn that! unless i strike toto or perhap two times 4D when i buy 150 big 150 small. this really make me drool la..

dream house 2

my 2nd choice.. this one is located at river valley rd.. this is a 3rm too. but isnt as spacious as the top one.. but it gives me a cosy feeling when i enter this show room. WHat is impt? cosy right! haha. this will be around 1.4-1.6million SGD. thinkiing of that sum.. ohmygod! i will work hard for this.. i swear..

well, i have two things to blog about.. hmm.. one is the above one.. haha..  second one coming right up!


i really should be sleeping but here i am :) Think i annoyed a friend of mine. >.< SORRY! i didnt mean to. Why cant i just keep it to myself.. ROAR!! you will know who you are if you read my blog.!
                                                               
randomly, i asked myself do i believe in fate and destiny? i think somehow i do.. but on the other hand i also believe that things that happen dont just happen anyhow, but has been triggeres by an action by us. and if in the process of its happening, we make a different choice to act, then things would may be turn out differently. life"s unpredictable, and the only constant in life is CHANGE. we continually make one mistake, that is attempting to hold on to things that makes us happy now and then, not realisinf that even while you are holding on to it, things will change and sometimes letting go and allowing change to take place will you continue to experience happiness? if letting go somethng sad is hard, imagine how much harder it is to let go happiness, when you only have your own judgement of whether it is the right time to release and choose to not regret but await your next step in life??
hope those who read my blog understand what im writing..

IM SORRY!

i cant believe i will be facing my laptop now trying to finish this post.. i need extra focus because i had so much drink at this event held at great world city! suddenly so emotional!!! wanna let out what i try to hide inside at one go!!

After hearing some of my girl friends about thier story.. i was thinking their difference and mind.. just that our encountering is opposite.. if we take it out and mix and match.. we will be so perfactly made for each other. well maybe im not your cup of tea or vice versa. things just happened.. cannt be help...

i think i had my emotion enclosed for too long.. now one shot it wanna let it all out... i try to bear with it. i was so afraid that i willl burst into tears in the public!!! so i try to bear with it till now...

this will be the last time. i swear.. i will move on

this is ever so random.. S(my ex gf) didnt see me as part of her life .. either in the present or in the future. she made me burn my letters from my girlfriend last time which i have kept for 2 years? everytime ask for breakup in a quarrell? during each quarell is all your saying, i kept quiet.. maybe that doesnt seems to be a quarrell since is just a person speaking. LOL.. i suddenly felt so stupid after i make her my priority, making so much effort to give her surprise and stuff.. but everything end with a snap i guess. Well i tolerate every temper she throws at me , behave such a princess. but ya. its okay. cause i love her.. . this will be the last bit about her.. i will be strong and move on the moment you start difting away from me.. BYE!



Well, i dont know is it fated that for me to meet you attracted me when i first saw you. i have been trying to restrain  myself from liking anyone but ya. just like car when out of control. Not to exaggerate but the smile of yours really  so sweet.(killer smile)(shot by Sinper) thats the moment..  i ever so want to appraoch you but i so afraid. shy maybe. so afraid to be rejected.. but ya. you got your reasons... hmmm... well, i taking my steps ever so carefully and slowly to approach you. just like an 80 year old man going down the stairs...

i start to see and take things differently now.. all i hope for you to be happy and well....

PS: wanted to tell you , if you are sad , let me know, i will be there for you.. but how! Mxxxxxxx

i had so much things to blog about last night while i was fishing.. but today i couldnt remember of the things i wanna blog about. DAMN! am i getting old? oh man i just 22 this year yet.. not even in my 30's yet.
speaking of which, im wondering how did i spend my past 21years. All i can is time really flies, what happened in primary school was like yesterday. Upon saying this, i like how life was so easy and carefree when i was young.. nothing to stress about.. eat play sleep.. well, once awhile study.. haa. As we grow older, we tend to get more stressful.. stress how results , school to enter . Slowly relationship problems to stress about .. then work stress, expenditure stress and etc.. Is this a system that we must go through?

put that aside. how i wish i can get out of singapore and lead life else where. Singapore though is safe and disaster free, it to small and somehow boring . Nothing much can be done here.. no sight viewing other than the ferries well and the singapore river.. shopping, drinking and clubbling. after doing all this, we are back to square one again. no matter how many shopping malls are being built now at orchard. its still same. no new recreation venues to be done at night .. the new things other than the casino. i wanna laugh when i said casinos.. youngsters cant even go in. other than leisure.. the weather here sucks .. though i stayed here for years.. it is way too boring.. sunny or rainning.. and that make ppl sick.. agree??

im wondering why do i keep doing this to myself? i feel the compulsion to keep going on...then i realise im stupid for making myself unhappy . Sometimes ppl just so into one thing and stuck.. and takes a long time to realise the way out...

remember , everyone has their own lives and they lead them differerently, and as the matter of fact that whether i can find the one to walk down the aisle and the rest of my life with me,life goes on for me now.Not try but stop thinking of those unnecessary stuff that has no answers to them, that is really the beginning and the end together. lead my life well and hopefully when i look back in the future years, i will be proud of what i've achieve. love myself and ppl will love me.

And such are the words i keep repeating to myself. i always say that im lacking of something, im dont really know what it is? i just my life to be smooth. Is it too much to ask for? Perhaps someone up there can answer me..

ps: i hope you are happy..

It has been a few months since i log in to my blog to actually write something down.. i had so much bottled inside which i hope i can let it out at one go.. but it is impossible.. too much to write maybe.. so many thing s happen this few months that i didnt know how and where to start.

last night i actually have the content strutured out in my mind.. but *poof* everything was forgotten. so i have to think what to write in my next few posts. maybe now i just wanna type words.. lotsa lotsa words.. to keep my mind stop thinking of unhappy stuff. Perhaps i shall write down whatever flash through my mind right now.. yup. RIGHT NOW! im starting to hate the the emotional period after breaking up.. why must i suffer all this ? i have given in so much yet i get this. i dont understand this. when can i really stop suffering from this cycle. Am i the problem.?? i getting out there trying to know new people... trying to change myself.. but i wouldnt know i changed. the new people out there wouldnt know too.. quite a headache isnt it?

well, i think this is one common thing i realise.. there are ppl out there having relationship problems too. all unhappy ones. i wouldnt mention names but ya.. they couldnt get what they desired.. same as what im experiencing too..  how i wish this can stop. trying to get into relationship... trying out is she the right one. why cant get a jackpot on the first try.. is it really that hard? how much suffering must one endured till getting the grand price? i seriously wonder. May be this is life.. feeling are hard to control.. things are hard to predict..

i still hold faith and believe in there is one out there rightfully belong to you ... he or she is the one will accept and love your every flaws and good points. simply.. everything of you. well, shall end my entry here. NIGHT!

a mth and going

cannot believe im still thinking of you...

if i have a time machine and can turn back time. i would really wanna change somethings back in my secondary school times. And perhaps my life now will be changed?


Yesterday was fun and tiring , finally i get to kick ball after so long. It just feels so good. but i had to admit , not old but , i'm just lacking of stamina! i will get them back!!

THE ONE THING I WANN DO MOST, TURN BACK TIME , I WILL APPROACH AND TALK TO YOU

whats next!!!






Chinese New Year ended, gambling ended. Visiting ended, Feasting also ended.. what will be next!

For me is JOB HUNT!!! this is really stressing me out.. i really want to get a job and earn money ASAP!

This year isnt a good year for me. Things arent up to my expectation. Well, i just have to live with it. Take whatever is being thrown at me. I do not have a choice dont i? Some things are meant to happen , cannot be avoided.


there are things i cant explain, it makes me feel sad whenever i thought of it , im still alone afterall.. thats all i can say. 

still inside

cannot believe im still thinking of you... but you will nv know...

today is not a day i will like to have .........





what i can say us that i had tough day, didnt sleep last night . i wanna drain out all my energy. while walking on the road side, everything around me seems to moving at a slower pace. i wonder why. well....


i screw up my studies, relationship. one wrong step taken, everything collapse..
how i wish i will fall and knock my head.. and poof.. everything will be forgotten.. in the world of my own.