Choosing between darkness and wonder!




i saw one of my friens' blog post.. her emo-ness can match up mine. but ya. this isnt a good thing. but ya. i can see that she seems to be enlighten by some of her friends words. This is a good thing i believe. at least she still got her friends around her to support her. Ever since i know her, i know that she is an emo kid la. and i have been chasing her blog too. so ya i din miss anything that is happening .

so i got so idea of this.. when being emo. is like being in the dark. everything seems so dull. whatever in life seems to be nth.. empty.

this is the difference when u r emo and happy. Wonder ! u can choose the direction of life u wanna be .. like the pic above.


regarding to someone asking me who i like? hmm . this is what ----->

is it that impt to know who i like? i see no reason revealing this as i already mention that if that person know, everything we are now will change. so ya. i rather keep it the same as normal. liking a girl secretly is a fun thing. hahahah
( follow up from previous entry) =)

男人ktv


前奏才刚刚响起
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唱着他们的订情曲
对不起提了你的伤心过去
一堆男人下了班不回去
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说这年头还有什麽让我们动心
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我和你吻别在无人的街张学友唱出我的情结
男人歌唱给谁来听
下一首有没有你心情
你的背包让我走的好缓慢
陈弈迅那首歌是唱的他自己
男人歌唱给谁来听下
一首有没有你心情
我和你吻别在无人的街张学友唱出我的情结
男人歌唱给谁来听下一首有没有你心情你的背包让我走的好缓慢
陈弈迅那首歌是唱的他自己
男人歌真的唱的不是不该说的心情

10 signs to show im in love with YOU

10. You are the first thing i think about when i wake up and the last
thing i think about when i fall asleep

9. Just thinking about you when puts the biggest smile on my face and my heart
heart beats faster and faster (like now) =)

8. Every love song u hear , i think of you

7. i re-read all the convos we had over and over again

6. when we are together, i never want the moment to end , i want last forever and
ever

5. Whenever im with you or look at you, nothing esle in the world matters. Im
blind to everything but you.

4. I am on cloud nine jsut the way you smell

3. Just by hearing your voice, i get rainbows and cant help but smile.

2. i miss u even before you leave.

1. i would do anything in the world for you since you are the world and everything
to me....

Confession of truth and facts.



After considering for a while. i think i will do an english anf d chinese combo within an entry? so for my friends who read my blog and choose to read either english or chinese. Freedom to choose. just that a little bit of trouble. but thats fine! im so free and hv really nth better to do .

now i think this entry will be a quite a long one with some thickness of content to write.
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how i wish im in a la la land or fantasy land . w/o worry . w/o emotion so that i wont fall in love and hv the after effects of breaking up , loneliness for a some time then blah blah blah! and other than falling in love. i wont hv any misery cause by other stuff.. i wonder how will that kind of world be like? hmmm???

its has been almost 3 years being single.. different pple will hv different thoughts of being single. but for me .. ITS VERY VERY VERY boring. ya i know there is friends. but what wil happen if ur close friends all are attached. who will have the time to bother u? its a fact that al my friends are like damn busy with their own stuff.. no time !!! so i only can rot and rot.. nth much to do. other than that,, hmm.. nobdy to confide to . kinda sad actually. have to suffer alone. im lost in the my blank world. struggling . sometimes pple say ya. single is good, freedom and stuff.. no fighting no nth... is that the way u are thinking? being single there is too much freedom that lead to boredom! fighting the one u love is kind of fun if u look at it on the other angle.. an angle which u wont be able u know when u r in relationship. try to think back. hee. i may sound stupid but ya thats what i felt. trying to find one relationship. but cant. perhaps time isnt ripe yet. or i shall be single for another 10yrs? haha. i hope not .!!!! if not i will bbe bored to death@@

all the long i hv been telling pple lie . ahha. so now i hv a confession to make. when pple ask me who i like or sth. i would deny or ssay no i dont like anyone . i immune to this kind of thing and stuff. but the fact is i do think i like someone . quite some time already. i just hv been trying to run away. not to admit that i actually like someone. cuz i think there will be no result in the end . hmmm. i think im not the guy for her. i dont think she got the chemistry towards me . i know pple will ask me try. but no thnks . i rather like her in this way and mayb carry on not letting her know.. so that we can still be friends.. n hang out sometimes. yea.. there isnt much happening between me her. so ya.. this is one way traffic kind of thing.



真情的告白


好吧！我已用了英文来苏诉说了一些事。那么我现在就长话短说吧。
我觉得做认真得很累，用许多事要去面对。不管是好的坏得都要自己一个人来面对。
所以我觉得单身真得很孤单，想找人诉说心事都难。 又是一对情人吵架，我觉得还蛮有趣的。
这样是另类互动来了解对方的方法。人也不会觉得那么闷。

其实我一直都有喜欢的人，我只是不敢去面对这事实。因为我觉得这段恋情根本不会发生。我陵园暗恋她，好过向她告白，这可能会让她躲避我，那时可就糟糕了。更何况这事我单方面的喜欢。就让它就这样下去吧！

Unpredictable.beyond control.Helpless




there are so many things that humans we ourselves cannot control like death, sudden lost of love ones, love relationship and etc.

how many times can one human suffer from these different kind of blow at one time. can we really withstand this kind of pressure? there is so much to handle that one may collaspe at anytime. One moment of happiness, one moment of saddness, this sudden change is just like taking ROller coaster..

it doesnt help much by letting all out. it really doesnt help as the pain will still remain there no matter what..

i dont cry . i dont show any sign of sadness doesnt mean i dont care at all. doesnt mean i dont feel sad , misery. do u know its worst that i can show anything out. i just wanna be strong and not letting other pple worry. am i wrong ? there are so muchh stuff to tink and plan when this kind of tragedy happen.. lets survive it tgt!!!

Im back !!



it has been 3 mths since i last update my blog. till now im still thinking whther to use chinese or english for my 1st post 3 mths.. but for the majority, i think that use english will be a better choice as some of my dear friends cannot really read chinese.. after all english is still the international language known by most of the pple.

during this 3 mths , alot of things happen.. i dont think i wanna write those sad stuff in here yet.. dont wanna spoil the atmosphere for the 1st post after so long. so ya... for the subsequent posts i will update in either chinese or english. depending on my mood.

some of my friends are in army already.. soon will be almost all my friends. how ???? what can i do? i need not go army.. so i wll be bored to death!! who can help me？ worst is i dont hv alot of girl friend. and those who i know most of them are already attached , had to acc boyfriend, so ya. so i shall not go disturb them for much.. what can i do then? think think think!!!!


my 21st bdae is coming !!! how can i celebrate.. those who read this post pls.. do rmb it k.. 11th of march hor.. present !!!! haha.. rmb i dont recieve any present when im 17 onwards..how sad right. only i give pple !! hais.. dont know why.. still think of how to celebrate... any suggestion?? feel free to tell me leh. i really got no idea of what to do.

im not excited about it anw. cuz there is sth bothering me.. im feeling down recently. why must human hv emotions.. so miserable..

i hv things yet to be fulfil. these things are to be fulfil b4 my 21st bdae.. but 6mths left. how?