title: why? AM ITHAT BAD?



dunno wad to say.. its quite disheartening n sad to hear that a parent actuali dislike mi so much... am i reali that loathsome? unpleasin to the eyes? why does he has so many bias against mi? ya.. i agree that i might be handsome.. but that doesnt counts all rite? no noe knows wad will happen in the future de ma,,, i dun wan my dear to quarell wif him over mi. that makes mi feel very sad u know.
this is the 1st of all times i heard a parent dislikes mi so much.. but he onli did see mi once .. n the period of time isnt long,, din even talk to mi b4,, he doesnt know mi well or shud jus dun even know mi.. hais.. im jus sad that the imrpession i gave
wasnt that well ba.. hais..

sudenly i felt that im worthless... so many bad points abt mi? im reali that bad? why doesnt any1 tell mi? but overall i still love yun han , my dear.. no matter wad.
i jus dun wan her to be sad n cry...

title: YAY!!! finally our two month... but




hmmms.. time reali flies ah.. mi n my dar reaching two months le... one day more.. haha.. cant tink of it ah.. had been miting her everyday 24-7 leh.. haha.. cant figure out why eh.. i will miss her even for a sec.. close my eyes see her face liao... hais.. but too bad la.. i got driving test tml n she got her netball camp.. cant cele tgt liao.. but i tink that she will know wad m i tinking . actuali.. celebration is jus a form of showing.. but we all know. its jus impt that we still hv each other in our heart// loving each other.. thats enuff le.. for example.. spending wif ur love one happily... everyday is a valentines day.. m i not rite.. haha...
camp camp camp... 1st of all is OBS.. 5days.. now ehr scool netball camp.. luckily onli 3 days. if not i will die n will start complaining to her fren wenting again.. haha...
i jus love her la.. cant help it..lol... hmms... i hope this love of ours will last lors.. i cant say everlast... but .. jus carry on ba,. i dunno can pass my driving test ornt man.. hais,, nv study,, lol.. okie la wish mi luck ba

title: /?/?/?/

my dear is back.. n ofcus im happy.. dunno why i feel sth amiss . hais..
why am i feeling this way? my heart aches.. dunno for wad reason... n i feel lke crying.. i dunno how to describe how i feel? is it i tink too much le or wad?i reali dunno.. im reali stressed up alrdy.. wads is happenng to MI? tears now filled my eyes .. but i refuse to let it drop.. is it becus of my dear? or wad? i reali got no idea..
my family had probs alrdy.. im all confuse..

can someone let mi know the answer? due to overwhelming reponses.. i nid to carry on.. haha.. =p

Title: fiNallY... FriDAy is here


HAha... the day im waiting for has finally arrive.. wch is FFRIDAY.. the day wch my dear is coming back frm camp man... everyday till today.. i was praying for the time to tick faster.. so that i can meet my dear asap... finally ya.. can say that i reali miss her .. even im hving flu n fever... she is still on my mind .. haha... dunno that she got misses mi ornt leh? haha... perhaps she hving fun in the camp bah? but tuesday she did ring mi up... i was surprise n Happy.. at least i can hear her voice.. can cure my love sick abit bah.. haha..
though now im still sick... im gonna fetch her frm sch. im dying to see her...
i reali love my dear alot ...

hais... now starting to stress again leh.. now going to no more money liao.. hais... luckily i had clear my debts ah.. if nt i will die in the worst kind of ways man... thanx to my dear ... i managed to clear my debts ba.. w/o knowing her or hving her by my side.. i will still be gambling n smoking ba.. haha...
sch work oso stress... i know nuts abt OOP man... mext will be NF.. the rest still okie ba.. how how how?
my 2nd month wif my dear is comingsoon le... 11 more days.. but both of us is busy ah.. i got driving test. she got camp.. hais... she gonna leave mi for a few days again.. hai.. why leh?
i reali miss the times wif her though.. how i wish im in sec sch now leh.. at least got hols .. den can spend more time wif her... hais,. too bad la.. born in the wrong year,, haha.. wonder why she n i can mit up everyday leh? puzzled!!! tink she had bcome part of my daily routine n part of my life le ba.. sth wch i cant short of in this period of time... no one knows wad will happen in the future or i can say in few months time.. but i will cherish every moment n every single sec wif her lors... the chemistry bonding is strong ba perhaps.. for now.. i jus hope that afternoon quicky arrive n now im preparing to receive her msg abt wad time she will be arriving... i will fly like a rocket to mit her .. haha..
tats all ba..

shud i stop?? i dunno leh. pple starting to question mi liao!! aiyo

title: 2 more days to go....


hais.. misses her so badly can.. cant even hv a gd slp lor.. now im sick le la.. cough like wad shit.. hais...

now i onli can do things alone alrdy... has been going to the places she n i oways go.. like champion... MOS burger.. taking bus 55.. her sch the busstop.. im jus leting my brain recapping the memories being wif her.. so that i wun miss her so much.. but like no help eh... wah.... lao tian ah... bring her back to mi asap can.. aiyo.. reali dying le la..

2 more days.. n she will be back... gogogogo!!!!

title: this is how i feel now... OMg


frm sept 21 onwards till now... haha.. i hv been wif my gf till now.. hmms.. abt a month plus le bah.. since den..we had oways mit up wach other w/o fail... i miss her so much now .. she had went to 5 days OBS camp.. now i cant mit up wif her for 5 days after being wif her everyday.. how can i survive.. perhaps down ther she is hving fun ba.. as CAT HIGH was ther... hmms.. so man guys wor.. haha.. but i can say that dwn here.. im missing her BADLY.. wonder how to spend my 5 days w/o her ya.. hmms.. hope my dar is alrite ba.. as she is nt feeling well when she go to camp.. hais...
reali misses her..

im back.. since so long i hv update my blog.. i miss it le. LOl.. hmms.. its has been alomost a month ba.. my poly sch has started,, n i tink it wll get real busy ba.. anyway.. haha.. hope everything will get on the track smoothly ba..

hmmms... the story shall ends at this blog le ba..
its had been 2 months ever since the guy tries all means to gif up the gal he use to like .. haha.. actuali this seems to be better for him as he got his new love out of the blue.. nad he is getting happoer each day wif his current gf n they had jus lasted a mth.. the gal oso find her prince charming.. N the guy oso gt his cinderella ... perhaps.. tis is the most happy outcome the both of them will het.. the end

LOl.. finally there is an ending to my story.. haha..
time reali reali flies.. in a flashof time... my dar dar n mi tgt alrdy 1 month liao.. haha.. so glad abt it.. looking forward to our future hand in hand wif her.. haha... surprsingly.. i had mit my dar dar everydae since the day we got tgt.. haha.. w/o fail.. mayb i got use to her liao ba... cant even leave her a month than 3 hours? if not i will die of missing her.. Lol.. we hand our 1st month at sentosa...it might be a great 1 .. but i promise her that i will make a a gd one in no time..
i truly love her ba.. loving her i a job that i wun quit.. no matter wad.. hmmms.. at least for now i know that i wun.. mayb down the road.. i will love her even more n make it my permenant job? haha.. no 1 knows wad will happen in e future rite.. as i reali had my time spending happly wif her.. still lookin for our happiest moment to come.. haha
alrite ba.. i tink i stop here le..
i will be back!!!!

title; moving on to our 1st week


haha.. times reali flies .. day by day .. i mit her.. hmms.. unknowingly.. our 1st week of relationship is reaching,,, haa.. to mi.. i dun wan onli 1 week.. i wan it slowly to be.. 1 month.. 1 year n adding on and on.. till dunno when.. spending my times wif her is reali enjoyable ba.. cant bear to let her home sumtimes.. but bo bian leh.. haha.. luckily there is oways a tml.. so when nites comes.. i will quickly go slp .. den pray tha day light faster arrive. haha. so.. this will be my life wif her ba...

titlte... memorable SETEMPBER

it feels so great during this september.. hahaha.. so long nv feel this way liao eh.. haha..
i will defintely rmb this month.. particular year n date.. cus seem significantly. love had rise frm the horizon.. hohoho.. uderstand ma? hmms... 21/09/06 .. thanx to my one n only lo.. haha.. too bad my one n only wun see pple blog de.. haha... she can reali slp la.. even i whisper so close to her ears... she cant even hear wad i told her.. luckily .. i din wake her up la.. if nt i will jump dn frm the chalet room n eat grass.. haha. but i end the i still told her that i reali like her.. LOls..
i reali hope i can last this relationship.. i dunno how but i will try my best to maintain it ba.. as i wanna settle for LTR now le.. no more fooling around..
hope everything turns out fine

title: its getting stronger n stronger... deeper n deeper

haha.. updating my recent life here.. hmms. kinda happy .. thanx to this silly gal lo.. haha.. hmmms.. this few daes nth reali happen. onli spend my time wif this silly gal.. hmms.. reali enjoyed it.. chat wif her whole night .. but times flies la.. reali hope i hv got the power to slow time dwn like BRUCE ALMIGHTY... happy times does flies.. truly n seriously... when can i hv such wonderful time again? it hasnt happen for 3 yrs liao man.. feel so great to hv it back again....

more n more feelings i had for this silly gal as everyday passes.. the more i want to be wif her.. but till now i still dunno how she feel towards mi.. but nvm.. i will still continue to like her no matter wad ba..
jus cant shake her off my mind.. haha.. gd man.. at least got sum1 for mi to miss everynite n day...

hope things will turn out fine n smoothly for mi....

title: new chapter begins....

aft the past sad encountering.. he tink he is hopeless.. till one fine day...


the boy is moving on wif his life as usual wif his gang of bros.. seems to be happy wif current life ba.. haha.. still as crappy... omt man. lol

till one day... he went to champion to play snooker.. but this time ... no one expects wad will happen nxt in champion.. either does he knows that one little monment of time will affect the rest of his days? haha.. this sound exciting.
he went champion by bus as usual. but there is a slight changes.. sumthing caught his attention.. a gal wearing a green jacket sitting at the busstop wch he alights.. he din reali saw her face.. he din do much.. he walked to champion straight .. nv did he expect that the gal was heading to champion ltr too.. haha.. wad a concidence eh.. the gal soon reached champion but the boy din notice n the gal din notice the guy too.. but that doest last for long.. things are happening soon

ticks ticks.. as time slowly pass.. the distance between the boy n the gal becme closer.. yet they cant sense each other. luckily the boy went out for a smoke n he notice the gal again.. haha.. this time round .. he tried sth wch he din do for very very long time.. take gals number.. haha.. but he was jus shy n he asked his fren instead.. haha.. 1st impression of the gal to the boy is that, tall, beautiful tanned, age 16-17.. jus his cup of tea... he was praying hard to hv her number... in the end the boy got it.. he was half happy half sian.. as his other fren oso wan.. DAMN IT!! bo bian.. he had to share.. he din msg the gal at 1st... his fren took the 1st step..but in the end. haha.. the gal dun wan msg his fren.. at this point of time.. he den msg the gal.. hmms.. everything went on smoothly aft that day n it last for a week
the boy did ask the gal to his class chalet.. hmms jus nice she oso hving chalet.. same venue diff place. jus being seperated by inches.. but the do mit.. n they went escape . thou the boy din feel quite well aft a few spinning rides.. he still enjoys the trip.
soon the both of them.. the boy n gal began to chat on fone n chat on msn.. hmms.. and eventually mit up at his hse for a few times.. PLAY CARDS>.. haha.. weird...
soon the guy feels sth .. slowly he falls for the gal. he kept it to himself in the begining.. he tot.. can this time be sucessful. he cudden face it as he had few setbacks . so he din dare to fall for sum1.. but in the end he cudden hlp himself n try to the gal how he feels in the blog.. haha.. the gal did went in a read. but dunno why sum gals like to act blur leh.. haha.. it was reliefing aft the guy said the words frm the guy.. he expressed himself by a lyrics of a songs.. til now.. now.. he still dunno how the gal feels abt him.. he was jus praying for the best to come ba

anyway. the name each other sotong<> dunno why.. gal= black sotong boy=sotong

title; perhaps . u will know if u r in my blog



since the gal aint telling mi wad she told her fren instead of telling mi.. haha.. n i tink she wun tell mi now n even in the future... hmms.. i tink i shud stop asking her the same thing le.. so paiseh ah.. kip fan u abt the same thing again n again..

anyway... i dunno wads the thing she gonna msg mi initiali... n im nt going to guess.. ltr biao chuo qiing jiu jialat liao man.. haha.. will be damn paiseh.. so.. i tink i wun go tink abt it anymore.. however.. here is sth for u.. onli u.. haha.. hmms.. found out that time wif u flies fast and its nice n comfortable lo
dunno leh.. haha.. weird weird la.. haha.. y u dun wanna tell mi leh. haiyo.. u dua xi gua laa..
for that once i saw u in frnster... i said gonna make u my gf la.. den i say wanna go pierce outside wait for u n take ur number la.. haha..

come in my blog ba!!!.. n i dun tink u will la

tc ba!!

All I am, all I'll be

Everything in this world

All that I'll ever need

Is in your eyes

Shining at me

When you smile I can feel

All my passion unfolding

Your hand brushes mine

And a thousand sensationsSeduce me 'cause I

I do cherish you

For the rest of my life

You don't have to think twice

I will love you still

From the depths of my soul

It's beyond my control

I've waited so long to say this to you

If you're asking do I love you this much

I do

In my world, before you

I lived outside my emotions

Didn't know where I was going

'Til that day I found you

How you opened my life

To a new paradise

In a world torn by change

Still with all of my heart'

Til my dying day

this song.. hmms.. nvm.. haa.. nth liao

title. moving on

hey.. back from cls chalet.. nt reali as fun as wad i had b4 ba.. perhaps it is becus of the pple going? haha.. mayb nt the grp that we click ba. hmmms.. luckily yUN.h was that.. she is the sotong QUEEN... 1st time i see a sotong black in color... hah.. rare encounter man.. haha.. mi her n her fren.juliet went to escape.. thou i was dying ther.. hah.. gut i enjoyed myself ba. haha.. idiot la.. they actuali use butter n curry to make mi man.. oways i kena man.. i see u guys are gals okie.. overall i did enjoyed myslef ba..
hmms. here is wad happen ytd nite.. they came to my hse to stay overnite.. we played a game wch i cannot tahan man./ haha./ forfeit is drink lots n lots of water// i kena 8 bottles n yun.H kena 10.5 bttles.. bit im kind enuff to hlp her drink some of hers.. i actuali vomited aft drinking that man.. reali cannot tahan it la.. stomach filled wif water reali very hard to tahan// but bo bian,,
dun wan her to suffer.. haha/.. so i act hero abit lo.. hohoho..
times reali flies.. hols left onli a month.. haha.. hmms.. but reali getting real sian lo.. nth to do le.. n i no more money liao. haha.. totaly broke.. haha..
anyway.. enjoyed the time being wif her laa.. haha.. dun tink she will even come in this blog. so i dare to write it out.. haha


to"" sotoNg QueEN

hey u.. dun oways say mi sotong le k... haha.. u are rare species de lo... black in color.. haa.. anyways.. enjoy my time wif u around.. haha.. reali nice knowing u.. haha... tc.. mug hard la.. n bear wif it ba..
cheers.. DUN MISS MI>>>> NT I MISS U
:)

title: here am i standing.

friday is here.. aha.. im gonnna my sec school mates chalet.. lol.. looking 4ward to it .. nt reali to the chalet ba.. haha.. jus might becus of seeing YH too? opps.. luckily she cant view my blog for the time being .. ahem.. sum1 say blogging is gurly? NO lo.. pls... here is a place where i can share my tots n stuff lo.. my gf leh.. u know.. unless i got a real gf la.. if not i will be tokin here ba..
hmms.. rmb i said i took a gals hp frm bishan,. haha.. hv been contacting her for past 2days.. haha.. still can click la.. but she likes to scold mi leh.. dunno why.. hmmms.. she onli rmb how i look frm side view.. haha... blur sotong is u is u.. nt mi... dun even know she got the rite person ornt.. wait she see mi n run away.. im monster looking guys.. haha.. hmms.. nice person to chat wif la.. haha.. nxt life choose to be her bf.. n she did say.. nxt life be my gf? haha.. wad abt current life? hmms.. dpends ba.. cannnot be sure of wads happening.. actuali im quite moddy 2dae.. sth happen to two of my family members... suppose to be 1.. but now.. sobx.. one more pop out.. i damn fan now u know.. hu can i tok to? hu? onli here lo.. haha.. y cant things go on smoothly for mi.. im facing too much this few months.. i tink i had enuff..OMt~ torturin mi izit..? trying to overcome this all f****king stuff.. ohya.. my mum actuali ask YH to come my hse eat.. thats was like.. man!! wadssup wif my mum, haha... screw losse liao izit? now i reali gonna learn to b a better man in all sense.. regretted for wad i hv done to my mama n papa in the past.. IM SORRY!!! hope everything is nt too late... this is how great blogging is.,. haha.. i jus watch a romance movie ba.. haha.. i did tears again.. 2nd time liao.. movie by andy lau n charlene choi.. all abt love.



to : Yun.H

haha.. elo.. nice knowing u there... hmms.. hv fun n joy chatting wif u la.. haha.. reali la.. u dun look like ur age.. lol.. n rite.. try nt to b so fierce can? haha/ u r a gal... nt a boy.. rmb that ah,, u r tall n tanned.. im tanned too.. i like tanned.. haha.. hmms.. abt current life? we shud see how we walk down the following days ba.. things are unpredictable... but i can cfm wif u.. nxt life.. nxt life. haha
see ya.. n dun oways ton too late la.. very fast old de lo.. hoho .. tata

title: the ending of the story


the guy do try to find someone to replace her.. but it seems to be unsucessful.. he still hv the same old dreams of her.. in this way.. how cud it possible to find others to replace her.. he do try to stop msging her... but soon aft .. he cant hlp it but to msg her again.. he tried to ask her out.. but .. none was sucessful... he do show care n concern to the gal .. but did the gal realise the intention n the love he is showing her.. no.. the gal din feel anything at all. . soon. the contacts between them is getting lesser each day.. he do try to pick up courage to confess to her.. but in the end he still kept in silence.. onli his best fren knew wds going on.. the fren of his do wanna hlp . but he refuse..he was jus worried that in the end.. the gal might jus avoid him n cant even be frens.. tat isnt wad he is hoping .. now that he onli wish she can get her true love .. thats all. he will b happy n b jus fine..
sch holiday starts .. he knew it will be harder for him to mit her.. he was quite sad abt it.. he still try to ask her out.. but he was rejected.. he knew this is coming to end.. the liking of this gal is ending.. he dun wanna let himself live in this kinda life.. he gradually deep himself into different kinds of activities.. n go flirting around.. wch he doesnt like n nv will he do in the past.. trying to change .. change.... perhaps now this kinda lifestyle will make him be happy? hu knows? onli he knows..
one fine night.. he went to read her blog.. n notice that she got heself a bf.. n she seems to be happy wif the guy she found.. now his mind was filled wif jay chou 's song lyric.. ban dao tie he..
now he finally tink he can put the love for this gal to an end n continue moving..
in his mind.. he said to himself. " if possible, he wuold use his lifetime to love her...
n mayb his love will nv end for her.

THE END


nth much happens to mi ba.. haha.. jus got a gals hp frm bishan.. wierd eh.. lol.. so long nv ask gals hp le.. last time i ask was 3yrs ago.. that was damn long lo.. alalmak.. quite fun leh,. but kena reject den is nt fun liao lo.. hohoho..
hmms.. planning to go lim chu kang cemetry in near future.. trying all sorts of things that i nv try b4.. haha.. gd man.. dne i nwun waste my time jus slacking,. im getting my SIM application results soon.. hope i can get in ba.. i dun wanna stay at NP le.. thou there is happy times.. but there is oso sad times.. i wanna leave the sad times behind in NP.. n birng the happy times wif mi to SIM.. new era will den start n i m gonna strive hard n acheive high.. tats my goal i set for myself.. i wanna hv high status in the society.. bring my parents proud.. im gonna let them lead a gd life...

Title..: nite trip at dairy farm n changi


wow... hmms.. actuali i din see any real ghost damn lt la... a wasteful trip lo.. but manage to capture two pics wch suspects to be ghost... saw that white line? haha when u see frm the side of ur montior u will see diff resolution of it.. while the top pic.. u shud hv r reali gd eyesight to spot a face there on the right side of the pic.. haha.. it aint joke k.. its reali the pics we took.. shud be looking for more haunted places to visit in future... hehehheewe found onli aft we were on our way home.. haha.. eeriee isnt it.. haha.. nxt trip will be LIM CHU KANG CEMETRY i tink.. this time round using digital cam liao.. nt hp cam liao.. damn unlucky man.. the cam we brought there no batt.. sian lo... haha.. hmms.. but overall the trip is still alrite onli.. mt reali scary la.. cus din reali sw those stuff.. lol.. gona try otheer things in future.. hehe.. hmms.. kaiyan is the onli gal wif us ba.. haha.. thou in the beginning she say she was scared.. but she still on us n follow.. unlike some other guys.. so hum. so big size still hum.. hmms.. wah piang eh.. i took a cab n sit in the boot.. wah.. 1st time in my life... i sit in a boot.. haha.. cool ah.. i tink recently mind abit screw loose eh.. haha.. hu wanna join my expidition at nite? haha.. i dare u to come.. call mi man.. lOL...

there is a gal i tink i still like her .. but .. doesnt seem to hv the fate n destiny to be wif her. why ah? anyway.. hu will wan mi rite? so damn this kinda pattern.. im nt handsome some more... hais...zzzz sian... lol.. tats all for 2dae.. tata

title: i had fun


hmmms.ytd went to TOWN to a kbox session wif my frens.. haha.. sing till full ah.. can tell u 1st.. dunno leh.. this time round nv sing untill no voice leh.. hoho. perhaps is jus a short 4hrs session.. nt long enuff eh.. haha.. aft that we went to play snooker... lol.. as usual la.. our game routine.. hmm. i kinda broke now le.. so.. haha.. take step by step lo.. money spend finish liao den die.. lol.. hmms.. i hid a job la.. toopid tuition agency nv givr mi any assignment.. shit them la.. haha... anyway.. i wanna tanks u for trusting mi ah.. u know u hu la.. telling the password... thanx.. winkx./ i jio u out again.. bo shang lian.. reject mi. alot of times le hor.. haha.. hmms.. the stupid person who disturb my dear fren in her blog... haha.. scold u oso waste my breath as u cant see .. n u r a shit.. so dun worth scolding u.. hmms... continue my day ba... aft snooker.. haha.. we still quite hyper ba.. so we went dwn to cineleisure to catch a late horror movie.. nt a bad show ah.. quite horror.. lol.. hmms.. during the journey to cine.. we actuali had a walking compettion.. haha.. i tink mi n ands had a draw ba.. haha.. hmms.. sad la.. nv win.. nvm.. haha.. tml is teachers day celebration le.. im going back to my sec sch n see my teachers.. haha.. kinda miss sec sch life now.. tinking back.. sec sch is much much better lo.. hmms.. my primary no more liao.. if not i tink i will go back de lo.. hmms.. it merges wif ftpps.. my pri sch teachers are teaching there now.. dunno stil dre ornt leh.. nvm.. oso nv go back.. im lokking forward to this friday nite outing man.. so excited.. going to OCH.. hoho.. hmms.. i sort of the organizor.. lol.. hmms.. nv go b4 .. so mus go.. if a im a failure.. my dear lill fren kaiyan was so scared to go there man.. haha. i will make sure she goes... haha.. anyway.. got gal go oso ma.. y scared.. i n other pple woll protect u de ma.. hehe.. no worries la.. suppose to go to KRUNK at sentosa.. hmms.. due to lack of funds.. so i nv go lo.. hehe. save money now man.. if not i will die.. i jus nid a job la.. tats all.. a job will save mi for now n future.. hehe.. i had register for SIM le.. hope i can gt in lo.. but i will miss my frens in Ngee anN. thou is nxt door onli.. but .. hais .. im all alone in SIM... i shy u see.. haha
so dunno can make new frens ornt.. hopfully can ah. hehe..
okie ba.. stop here for now.. friday back from OCH den update my blog again

title: same dream again..

omt~ same dreams again aft two weeks.. haa.. so weird leh.. haha. im so bored la.. haha.. recently nth much happen to mi lo.. onli that im in debt tats all.. haha.. very in debt. haha.. hu can hlp mi!!!! haha.. going twn ltr.. so long nv go twn le. but hai.. now oso no money.. hee.. dun feel lyk going twn leh.. cus mty hair very sucky now.. so ugly ... no face.. haa. perhaps wearing a cap ba.. haha. i had the same dream again.. mayb im tinking of that person too much? or wad? i dunno.. jus wondering.. hmms.. but i tot tat i shuden tink of her so much ba.. its impossible between us i tink.. it is oways liddat de laa.. i confess le oso no use .. so now i rather kip it to myself.. trying to pick myself up frm it now lo.. trying hard.. this friday is KRUNK.. zouk out nite.. dunno to go ornt.. no money eh. now dun hv the play mood now leh thou is hols now.. haha. ltr im gonna sing my hearts out man.. lol.. i tink my fren is abit mad ah.. intro mi to join superstar.. crazy man.. so paiseh can... haa.. i sing like toad den wan mi join.. wait till i sing like professional den can consider la.. siao 1.. wait the tv jus noce telecast my audition den i die ah.. no nid go sch liao man.. mus put paper bag cover my face.. my dear fren.. hmms.. fate brings two lovers toghter.. the rest of the journey mus depends on each of them.. see how they mantain n develop.. we can choose our destiny.. it jus depends how we look at things sometimes.. nth is impossible ba..
treaure n cherish is a gd virtue to learn... haa.. dun take things fir granted tats all..
the end of 2dae ba.. haa.. oh ya.. hows my story? there will be more of them.. kip in touch!!!!

title: tired tired tired...

wah.. very tired eh.. hmms... since school hols.. i hv been spending everynites till morning ard 6am.. shit man... sopiling my own health.. haa.. hmms.. the fishing trip was FUN!! haa.. thou the harvest wasnt that great.. but i tink my frens n i enjoy that nite ba.. haa.. we played games instead of fishing.. my fren will sick man.. kena forfeit.. the forfeit is kiss each other.. my fren i n were to kiss for 5 secs.. omg la.. btw.. my fren is a guy.. while we were doing our forfeit.. he tilt his head left n rite.. wah.. seems like he is enjoying.. wth la.. so sick . haa.. nvm la.. nxt time i will take my revenge.. lol.. i spent my day at kahtib jetty wif my frens till nxt day monring 10 lo.. den i reach home bath le.. straight away lie on my bed and slp... haha.. i slp like no mans world man.. lol.. hmms. nw my hse is like a chalet man.. haa.. so many of my frens come here slack n overnite.. lol.. but is gd ala.. hols oso nth to do.. haa im soo tired eh.. hmms.. ltr is my NP fren eveS bdae.. but i might not be going eh... so tired.. n my papa is back 2dae frm oversea. so i tink i shud stay at home for 2dae ba...

tink i shud stop here le ba..
come in nxt time round

title: the story continues.....



days had passed.. the guy still watches the gal frm a distance.. but this time round.. he seems to be alittle joyful . haa.. cus he has got the contacts of the gal he likes.. n e both of them had start msging n chatting online.. but in his heart he knows that the gal will nv like him .. she still loves the guy alots.. however he seems to be contented in this way of life now.. cherishing every precious moment he had wif her.. haha.. as in chatting n msging.. he still nv dare to confess to her. he scared this might scare her away. n they cant even msg n chat.. he dreamt of her everynow n then... hmms. then the nxt day moring his mum will tease him n ssay " son.. u were smiling sweetly last nite. hu did u dreamt of" haha... he shy off n shoo of his mum.. lol. he can onli be wif her in his dream.. so he will try to slp early n hv the same dream of her.. how he hops he will be able to protect the gal n shower her wif all his love for her. this jus aint happening to him.. "" being love is fortunate.. love sum1 is miserable w/o the person knowing. the gal oso suffering frm the same thing.. she was waiting for the guy she loves to love her.
how coincidence that they both were sharing the same fate.. but fate doesnt bring this two pple togther...

im back .. a few days passed n i hvnt update my blog.. nth much hppen ba.. was slacking all the way lo.. n im turnging abit fat i tink.. haa.. now my family probs is getting better.. bro bcome more obedient. life is getting jus ait better,, hols is abit boring la.. everyday mus plan wd to do the nxt day.. worry for money.. haiyo.. sian la.. Zxzxxxzzzz. haaa. slp late oso.. den wake up late oso.. life is turnign the other way round.. how i wish i had a gf now .. lol.. lalala.. den ca spend time 2gther.. shopping .. chatiing .. hais.. thats jus too bad.. waiting for pple to intro mi eh. hu will be my saviour... hahaa.. aniway.. im going fishing 2dae... haha.. got around 7-8 pple going.. that will be fun man.. hope i will got harvest ba.. lol.. now im my mind, there is this 1 person im tinking n worry abt now... hope she wun be emo n smiles oways ba

TO: u..
hope u know im refering to u ba.. hmms..visited ur new blog.. nice seh!! haha.. i wan 1 of that.. haah.. nvm.. hmms.. dun be unhappy la.. u hv bright smiles okie.. haha. make full use of it lo... hmms.. dun fall sick again.. cus u will be hlping ur mum rite? make urself healthy n strong.. n mayb i willl ask u out soon.. be prepared ah.. haha

tc
love
jon

title: senseless, motionless, moodless.. im lost..


how cud it be? im feeling moody ever since last nite till now.. last nite was having steamboat wif my frens at my place... hmms.. feelin weird.. hmms.. feeling like sth is bothering mi lo.. but i cant figure out wad is it .. hais. could it be love sick? haa.. come on laa.. how can it be man? or perhaps.. my mind was tinking of something. or mayb some1 that cannot be true.. its jus my luck ba..
i lit my 1st cig of the day ytd nite.. i wan to blow my troubles away.. so aft the 1st cig.. comes the 2nd n then the 3rd cig.. it doesnt seems to be effective .. waste of resources la. haha.. wadeva la.. jus feeling aint rite ba.. i nv msg pple for two days n my hp is completely shut for abt a day.. was hoping for msges when i turned on my fone.. but nope.. there wasnt any.. and i wasnt online for almost 2 nites oso..
tink abt this line " wo de ai ren bu shi wo ai de ren?" wch means.. my lover now isnt who i love? omg.. isnt it sad.. sometimes.. u got urself a gf or wife isnt who u truly love.. thou there is feeling there.. but it cant reali compare to the one u reali n truly love.. u r jus trying to forget her ba.. hmms.. is it a gd way to avoid love or wad.. i saw that phrase frm my frens nick n i spend time tinking abt it.. hmms.. in the end i got nth .. when im alone.. i will start emo again.. haa.. dunno why.. this feeling i mentioned abve jus now is jus like a ghost haunting mi man.. i jus cant wad i wan .. why why why? it has been so long.. mus i kip waiting ? mus I!!!! i reali dunNO ...

TO:u
jus takkaire of urself ya.. dun oways stay up late lo... see la.. now u sick liao..
hmms.. drink more water n rest reali well ya.. u nid to hlp ur mama oso.. so. dun get sick again k.. get well soon and stay happy
SmiLEs

loves
JOn

title: nt a bad sentosa trip .. LOL

awww.. nt a bad day laa.. haa.. its was a fruitful trip i tink... anyway.. SEE! my hair was black... haa.. n my skin is getting darker n daker.. nice rite? my hair oso nice rite... haha oops.. im nt the main attraction in this post laa.. haa.. it is the guy on the xtreme left of the pic? see it? he is takashiyo.. hmms.. nvm.. jus name him taka.. he was our new fren frm osaka japan.. haa.. cute rite..? he is 22yrs old now la.. he was quite a humourous guy lo.. we had fun playing ball n chit chatting.. happy times do flies.. we stll had to bid gdbye.. wish him all the best in japan.. GAMBATE!!
anyway.. tats not the end of my day la.. haha.. i saw two gals.. two great gals at sentosa.. it was like fallen angels from the heaven.haa.. omT~i open my eyes n turn around aft i had my tanning.. wah.. can tell u man.. u wud tot rhat u r dreaming ah.. i swear. haa.. the two gals was mixed blood de.. i tink is not local ba.. they were taking pics under the coc0nut trees at siloso beach wit their parents.. cant take myeyes of them until they walk till far far far ahead.. haa..
aiya.. regret nv take pic wit them ah.. damn it.. nvm.. one was cute wif black hair.. the other one was wif long brown hair hair ba.. she was pretty pretty.. haa
uncle ah.. wad two gorgeous daughters u hv ah.. how i wish i was ur son-in-law. haa. dreaming man.. how wud i hv the chance.. im an asian.. haa..
anyway,, i had sum1 in mind liao laa.. for goodness sake la.. mine will still be the best ,, hoho..

title: haha.. wad a funny encountering


im very very full now .. jus came back frm dinner half an hour ago... rushing home to online man.. haha... wds so gd abt online? hah..mayb bcus got HER!! haa.. wad rubbish?!? anyway.. jus now while i was hving dinner.. it was actuali the 7th month dinner.. there was this lady in her twenties i tink sat bside mi. aft about an hour aft the dinner had start.. she starts toking to mi. omg.. i wa shock. but i can this lady was quite a pretty one.. hmms.. she asked mi wther i hv a gf or like anyone? i told her i hv sum1 in mind.. dn she ask does the gal knows abt it.. den i say nope.. haa.. i can sense that she is abit drunk n sad ba.. den she slowly bring up that she oso likes a guy.. but she couldnt tell him that she likes him for a certain reason.. hmms,, i was tinking.. wad a coincidence... same as mi siol.. lols. i guess she was about to cry ba.. i quickly console her.. as im scared if a gal do cry.. haa. den my mum ask if i know her/ haa.. den i act act lo.. say i know her.. hmms.. den we chat n chat till she ask mi wad will i do for my love one?
haha.. wad an interesting question! i said : i will peel prawns shell for her whenver we hv that for meal.. i will make her luff whenever she is sad.. lend her my shoulders witout fail. piggyyback her whenever her legs ache due to walking
let her have my shoes if she got her shoes spoil while we were shoping.. letting her know that she is more impt thanmy pride.. hug her whenever she feels cold. take off my clothings to shield her frm the rain even i hv to walk half naked.. haha.. omg man.. can u imagine that...!!
aft 45 mins of chating.. i hail her a cab n instruct the driver to send her home..
wad a strange enocountering eh.. keke!!

title: tHE story begins like this


hMMs... during the year of 2006... it is a new year for this particular guy. his new chapter of life at NGEE ANN POLY.. he thought that everything will very exiciting for him to the years ahead.. here is the headline of the story. he enters the block of ICT in NGEE ANN.. he had fun wif his new clsmate.. till the every end of the day.. he notice a gurl.. the cute little gal caught his attention.. he wanna appoach her but he din dare to.. haas.. { funni guy }. after all. he gave up his intention to know the gal n move on.. from that day onwards.. he will try to look out for the gal in ICT block.. witout fail.. he will grab wadever chance he had to take a glance at the gal .. no matter rain or shine { wad a stupid guy he is man!! haa.} this gal let him has got the reason to go sch early everydae jus to hv a look at her..
[why is there a guy who is born so stupid man... dun even dare to talk to the gal]
days n months had passed.. the guy truly has fallen for this gal.. but no one knows.. he had onli himself to express to.. as he knew that this gal like the other guy.. wad a heartbrking news.. all he did was looking her from distance.. loving her in silence.. wishing everything was doing fine for her.. protecting her in the dark like wad the guardian angel oways does.. he was contented jus to hear her sweet voice, bright little smile that she wore on her face whenever she is happy. and he will pray for her safety and for her happiness everydae..
BUt will this gal ever know how this guy feel about her.. hmms. i guess the answer will be an NO.. how long will this last for the guy? is there reali no chance for him?
NO ONE KNOWS!!
[i have skip some part of the story laa.. haa.. the above story onli covers 85%]


LOL.. here im back.. its now early moring 4am plus,,, i still cant fall aslp.. my mnd was full of stuff.. thinking of this and that.. haa.. she fall aslp while msging mi eh.
no1 to msg.. make mi felt so bored.. haa.. my bros are going to sentosa ltr this morning.. dun tink im following them.. im so shag n im gonna spend my time wif my beloved mama. YawnS.. holidays are so boring laa can.. hais... nid o find a job man.. if nt cant reali survive this hols.. i hv got plenty of things to buy . to do lo.
hope i can get into SIM ba.. haa// btw.. xiao gong zhu.. dun worry la .. u will nt jus get a pass.. i will pray for u de.. haa.. { tag mi wif u hapen to read my blog} n takkaire of the leg la k..
hmms.. make sure u accept my invitation nxt time hor.. haha.. or esle.. wahaha
thats all ba.. haha.. going to bed liao.. nites

tIlte: i forget what is LOve

hey..im back within hours.. haa.. 2dae is raining .. now this weather reflects abit about my mood now ba. :(.. now the cycle of my life is back.. i aint like this actuali. but i to face the facts of life.. so i tink being single is the best i tink.. perhaps ba..but sometimes humans feelings is beyond control ..but i tink is okie frm now ba.. im gonna kip everythng to myself.. im jus getting numb alrdy .. aft so many times of it.. i jus cant help it la.. or mayb the time aint rite for mi? no matter how much i done it is still the same laa... mayb this is my fate ba.. haa.. it might be a misunderstnding. but i tink is a HIGH percentage that it is not.. looks like im gonna led my carefree life alone or wif my brothers in the pic ba..
yeah man.. thats my brothers.. thats wad i took in sentosa lo.. im damn dark in the oic rite.. or is it jus becus of the lightings that makes mi looks as thou im a blackie... haha... now that i start blogging again.. haa.. i will try to blog everyday.. if there is anything happening.. as now im on holiday alrdy..
thats all ..

aiyo.. can u blieve this? the gal is still editing my blog.. wah.. i felt so bad now eh..
now is alrdy 5am liao lo.. omT~ thanx thanx thanx.. haa
getting bored now... so i took out my {letters} wch i got in sec school. can u imagine that.. digging my old stuff n read? recalling back.. haa.. memories can be sweet sometimes .. am i rite?
compared to last times.. haha.. i tink onli my skin changes laa.. {shakehead} jus came back frm sentosa.. getting darker n darker haa.. mayb nxt posting i shud upload my pics up here n show off my skin color man.. haha.. now poly life is getting busier each term.. but im still lingering around.. as if nth is happening . haa.. how i wish i lead a carefree life wif the gal i love.. wah shiok eh.. isnt that great, that might onli be a dream that wun come tru ba... aft i retain in sec 3.. i knew andreas n gang.. n we bocome best of the best frens.. BROTHERS. now wif a newly recruit member from NGEE ANN POLy..... SHAWN.. haha.. im single, like them ever since the time we know each other.. wah.. that was like 3 yrs la.. OMt~ isnt that long.. i tink it will be continuing till dunno when ba.. even thou .. now .. hmms.. nvm
i tink this introduction post is long enuff le ba.. haha..
see ya nxt time...

TO: U [ she know who SHE is]

hey gal.. thanx for ur great help in my blog ..
and here is a little compliment for u in my 1st blog of the month
thanx a million k...
thanx for ur effort
this gal whom im writing to spends about 45 mins hlping mi to do my blog
n the time is at 3.00 am
i reali appreciate it. { omT~.. im such a failure laa.. haha}
stay cheerfUl and SmilE AlwaYs