cannot imagine that i hv to start my blog after so long with a sad posting. OUR national Dragon Boaters which consist of two of my SEC school teachers had encountered a mishap in cambodia. wad a news to be known. 4 went missing. one died. The one who passed away is my teacher. i was shocked when i was being told.

life is so unpredictable. there are babies being born. given life. there are also people passing away. life being taken away. regardless of young or old. this is life. so much of sadness and happiness. all of them is unpredictable.

*prayers to the national dragon boaters*

because of ur smile, my life become more beautiful. a sentence i saw today on a girls back.. on her shirt. this caught my attention. haa. dunno why. so boring ..

duno wad to blog about.. hmms. this gal i wanna know more.. trying to get closer wif .. hmms. seems successful . nth is blocking mi. haa. but who knows wad futures behold.. still hv yet to ask her out.. hmms.. dunno is it appropriate?haa.

shall see!

unlucky or lucky?





im said to be lucky cus i found you
im said to be unlucky cus i cannot reach you

im so high whenever i tot of the incident. i smile
but i realise. it all can only be dream.
i mus bring back myself to reality. thou u reali exist

how can i satisfy my desire to get close to u..
only in my dreams.
searching for an impossible? i tink most probably yes!

happy yea im happy
sad oh im so sad..
isnt it so vague.?

i wan it tat way!

long long time nv blog alrdy.. lol. duno wad title to put. so jus start straight.
school started for a week alrdy.. nth much happen.. jus like mornal.. but i start to love school..
cus i can see alot of gals.. haha.. still cant find a gf in np.. dunno why. haha... so many gals man..
but i seems to know very few of them.. hais.
how?

title: motivated!!




someone out there give mi the motivation to get my license!!!!!!
i will get it soon!!!!

title: the something i missing in my life now!





the feeling that im lacking.
the feeling that im short of.
the feeling that im missing alot.
the feeling that im oways wishing for.
now.currently.at every moment im still trying hard to seek for the feeling.

the feeling of having a girlfren by my side. haha.. how heavenly it will be wif a girlfren by my side now. it feel so different from being wif frens , family and other people. the kind of feel, the moment which nothing can be replace. i kinda miss it. haha. (die for sure) ---> loneliness and emptiness growing in me! oh no.. AM I GONNA HAVE DEPRESSION? (LOL). days are so liveless, boring,. rotting in front of my TV set and my laptop. ohya. cannot forget my doggie (momo) lol. it has been a yr tat im single. haa.. still canoot mit the gal of my cup of tea? i pray. to whatever god im under or belongs to.i do. for a gal t drop from the sky.. haha.. but from a movie.. i have that god doesnt give u directly for wad u pray for. they create opportunities for u to fight for it. but that problem is .. i dun see any of that coming to mi. haa.. oh god! will i die a single? lol.. im not desperate or wad . im jus venting sth into my blog.
i hv not update for quite sometime too. so ya.
i still believe that she . she she she , one of them is meant for mi.. mayb im still dreaming .. who knows ya.? i got nth to look forwrd everyday. everything seems to be the same once i open my eyes . nth special.. nothing for mi to look frward leh. hais.. jus like plain paper n plain slice of bread. no colour no tatse. actuali got la.. when i sweat lo. SALTY!! haa

done alrdy lo. hais...

we were made for each other.

i hope u know it!

back from HongKong!





finally back from hongkong. been thre for a week ba. the weather was hot ! BUT. overall alrite lo. i hv been to hk for more than a dozen times lo... once got holiday will go ther.. jus like my 2nd home. haha. how nice if im staying there .. haa.. got 4 seasons.. and hk is a shopping paradise. lol



have been thinkng.. ( i hv came across some cute gals in hk) n i saw some cute gals wif some average guys . haha.. when is turn??? hhaaa.. wanted to hv a gf!! haha cant seem to hv one lo.. dunno why ! haha...

hahaha...




gucci belt is on my waist. LOL

new chapter of life for my little niece

ASHLEY!!!!

OMG!!!! my little niece was 50 cm tall and 3.59kg

abit gigantic leh.. for a baby gal.

haha.. her papa mama hvnt tot for her a chinese name. but was called ASHLEY !

i contributed in this name oso hor. haha.. my niece was so cute can.

cannot image at the age of 19 im an uncle.

dun worry.. i wil bring u go clubbing k! haha

welcome ASHLEY!

i have never felt like this before
Everything i do. reminds me of you

this is so damn unlucky.





OMG!!! fine for littering...
200 bUCKS.. for goodness sick.
FUCk the organization..

anw.. it was a bad day .


feeling like to have a gf
but it seems hard to find one
ok, fine, i gave up
shud i jus sit and wait for a gal to drop onto my arms??

thereis this gal i find every nice.
nice in character, personality..
wch will make her a good gf.
haha

but this kinda gal hard to get
and wun be my turn to hv her to be my gf
dream on lor.. haha

haha. finally someting nice to blog about.. instead of all emo stuff. wahahaha











hmms.. two days ago i bump into someone..

a person missing for years (LOL)

ever since primary school, i nv seen her till 2 days ago

a gal i like since p4 till p6? haha.. crush i can say?? dunno la

surprise that i hv seen her.. but.. too bad she cant recognise mi =(

she had turned into a fine . cute lady. wahahah

much cuter than she was younger.. oops..

arrgh...!!! regretted nv approach her la..

memerios start to flash back .. nice ones. sweet!!!


today, i went town to shop n buy handphone.
hmms.. bought an average hp .
if not evrytime lost, heartache.
anw. i like this hp of mine too..
so its doesnt matter la..
can call can msg can mp3..
not that bad la.. haha..
wad esle can i complain.

wow, today my eyes are enjoying alot .
so many cute, pretty, hot chicks.
around town area.
haha... can u imagine that 8 out of 10 is hot chicks.. haha
got korean, caucasian, chinese. haha.. all races..

not a bad day for mi

siansation~~~~





haha.. so long aft i hv played a socccer match
found out that my stamina drop drastically
this is a bad bad sign man..
i wanna get my stamina back
i wanna work
no money
but exam is coming
damn bloody stressful.. haha

no time for fun alrdy...
i wanna get my fitness back no matter wad..
i need a job ..
hu can intro me!!!!

wrong timing la... OMt~ how






so long nv blog alrdy. thou it might be a few days or a week.. but i can feel that my blog is rotting.. so bored n tired.. nth to do.. relectant to go sch.. busy wif assignment..

there is a ooad test tml.. i 2dae den know. haha.. actuali i plan not to go sch tml..
time reali flies la.. my dear canada fren is going back 2nitte..
hvnt reali go out wif her for the past one month.. arrgh
she isnt coming back for the next 3 yrs.. arrgh..
im gonna miss u irene!! nvm.. i will save for ur air ticket..
so u nid not worry abt the tix.. and u can stay at my place.. lol.
3 times the most we hv met for the past one month. sad for mi
nxt trip back.. dun be so busy le can.. spare mi some time la.. haha

now isnt the rite time to fall for someone..
reali the worng timing can..
not the rite timing for mi. as well as for the opposite i tink. haha.
she doesnt know abt it actuali.. but i jus felt that it isnt reali time.
how should i say?? hah.. if i continue saying . it will be damn obvious who the gal is.
anw, everyone is so busy now.. thou busy for mi is still alrite.. cus i will still spare time for her.. but there is still other reasons for not being the rite timing
so sad can.. hmms.. for half a yr im sinlge and not fall for anyone ..
but why now.. its okie actuali.. b4 being single for 6 months.. i hv stay single for 3 yrs aft my sec
so wads the big deal? haa.. its reali big!!! LOL
i dun wanna let this chance miss.. but how.. this isnt the rite timing..
n the gal doesnt know.. arrgh.. god is playing mi la.. aiyo.

can someone tell mi wad shoud i do?

brighter???






so bored.. nowadays singapore kips rainning.. n singapore is so so so f*** small..
got no wher nice to go.. oways go the same place. boredom..

now i suddenly got the feeling to hv a gf.. but im too lazy to love...
oh man.. contridicting myself.. haha
jus cant find the gal my cup of tea
even if i find.. the gal oso dun like mi
sometimes.. this kinda things bored mi
so it makes mi so lazy now
lazy to love free to play kinda attitude grows in me
haha..
when can i find a gal that electrify mi ..

the swim nite.. FUN!!!

times when we were deep in thoughts

the teens living in the shadow of darkness.

the night we had a tough climb.. woW!!!!

woo. thos pics was taken during our brothers gathering at town and my hus .. but not all my buddies turn up.. wch was a sad thing.. haha.. pics taking was fun .. im planning to get a camera soon man.. haha..

whats the use of stressing over rubbish now? haha.. i can have all the fun i want.. lol.. i dun tink i will be emo again alrdy. wif so many activites wif my bROs.. ORchard 5.. CHEERS!! haha..

it was reali fun.. i reali enjoyed it alot ..

tink will have fun once a week . haha

shiok sial.. haha..

i can live on my own .. in the world of fun n laughter.s

taking things into my stride..

trying not to think so much.

trying to be positive in everything..

there is hope . the is will..

moving wif the nature of course.

haha.. see where the timeline can leads mi to and how far will i be..

lol..

truly... i learn sth today







now i know.. haa.. being nice is a dumb n stupid way to live on this fucking world
so from now onwards.. i know how should i treat people.. actuali this depends on situation..

now got any lobang or wadeva .. like benefits.. i should either kip it myself.. or share it wif pple who are worth it.. now i wun treat everyone as my close frens.. i tink .. this shud stop ah. no point la seriously.. all of them treat u like grass.. step here n there.. i stil this shud stop.. no more sharing is caring.. woooo!!!

in this society , wif those kind n my kind of pple living n walking around. should learn to be smart.. tink of urself first .. instead of placing pple in front of u.. this is wad i should do long ago.. hope now is not too late...
when it comes to money.. haha.. reali man.. duno wad the fuck is gonna on.. everything is like money is more impt.. haha.. so nxt time.. dun lend pple money.. dun borrow pple oso.. the most impt thing.. dun gamble.. mahjong can still play abit.. haha....

i now should watch my steps..open eyes big big.. last time m not calculative. act blur . now.. sorry.. i will become very calculative.. the level of calculativeness depends on who is the person..

now got money spend myself.. n clear my debt.. any extra can buy cig.. its onli for mi n onli for those hu hv shared nv mi.. i can reject pple anytime i want.. so dun blame mi..
the surrounding n the pple around mi made mi to become like this..

in the case of cig... if i offer. den take.. if not.. please fuck off understand...

i think.....




i felt sth different... something about me is differrent..
i felt like im a fool..
but now... i tink i slowly changing.
my perspectives on some stuff have changed..
im still wondering should i still remain my prinicple or not..

its like no point holding onto my pricnciple anymore.. as i get nth gd in return.
so i tink i should jus fuck it ...
i tink this tis a way i can live happier... ignoring the things n gals around me..
im really sick n tired about them ...
come on.. give me some peace... !!!

i had enough of all those craps and nonseses thru all these years..
i tink now i hv to spend more time on the assignment .. which i tink is more impt than anything esle now..
fuck everyting esle except school work.. hoho..

humans... evoling into a stage .....






dissapointing.... (shake head)
tink nowadys humans are reali stupid
turning into a over sensitive creature.
dunno why..
this is reali bad omen..
humans are tinking too much.. and always tink that they are right..
sometimes.. things jus cant be judge from what it seems..
i contact her.. doesnt mean i wanna woo her rite? fren fren onli..

humans are oso getting more n more selfish..
onli care for themselves. nv care for other feelings..
tell u, people out there wad i am tinking now..
im so tired of gals.. hey.. this doesnt mean im bcoming gay.
now i see gals.. i feel like plain paper.. plain water.. no feeling no taste..
cus im sick of tired of guessing wad gals are tinking..
they can turn out to be monster... i cant find angels among them nowadays..
except for my gd lill fren from IT.. haa..

now humans are thinking way too much i can tell u,,
cant stand it.. misunderstand this and that..
making a problem from bad to worst..
Just open ur eyes n ur ear holes wide to see the situation.

get over it .. and stay PEACE..

IM GONNA FUCK IT!!!!

reali fUnny ... aND i fINd iT stupid n DUmb.. Haa







come on ! this is the 21st century
there is still such thing as i dun reali like my gf to be liddat?
Oh maN... wad a reply from a GUy.. Woooo

this is worst. reason of avoiding
check this out
"tell u honestly, i jus got a bf"
come on man.. do i care.. haha..
find it weird
be fren onli wad..
nid to be lidis meh? lol
laugh out loud la..

stupid pple stupid action stupid way.
i don care... one short doesnt kill..

jus to let u know.. this is reali stupid..

arrgh.......






the same old shit again.. fuck

why cant i spend my life smoothly.
this is realy fcuk up
i dun wanna spend my life like that

i have no money
i have no love
i have no choices
i have no body to talk to

all i have is myself
and ofcus
my buddies

u r the one since long
how can i confess
there is nth i can do..
all i can do is to spending time wif u w/o u know im falling for u.

i jus cant have wad i want.. why?? is this my fate
what have i done wrong? m i reali the bad?
all i want is happiness..
cant i jus get that? it is so simple..

once i fall into it..
the cycle starts again..
why jus cant man survive love?
perhaps some can .. but defintely not mi..
who is the one?? i seriously dunno

im tired of waiting
im tired of seeking
im tired of finding
im tired of searching
in fact. im gonna give up
it reali sux..

overall..

happiness... i want!!!

bother... bothered.. bothering....






there is sth kept wif mi for very long.. from primary 5 till now.... its jus something i cant shake it off.. for the decade... thou many things happen in between. but it jus cant shake it off.. arrgh..



the dumb dumb esther tan... duno how to make her comp still wanna act act ah..
pls la.. haha.. dun act k!! wahaha..
anw.. your bro eugene is funni n quite cute la.. cuter than u at least. haha.. so dun oways bully him can.. hhaha... thou ur hus is far.. but quite nice to slack ah.. relaxing man.. lol..
nxt week is ur tuition week hor.. RMB.. dun 4get. lol. N lvl coming.. wahaha.. mus get into O lvl ok.. i pls u now k? dun slp n slp la.. haha

there is this gal... LOL




you are in short hair.. n i said alrite.. thou i say u look better in long hair.. din mean to luff at u.. jus happen to be so funny... who ask you to run into my dream... n came out wif those stuns.. it aint totally my fault.. im not out to make fun of u... jus tat you r way to cute and funny.. all of ur stupids n dumbdunb running in my head. making mi reali feeling like one... Pls.. listen to mi.. and dun jus ask mi to shut up!! wahhaha..

you are not miss nice.. you are a blg bully.. no im not like u.. cus im mr good.. sing along wif mi.. yoyoyo!! come on.. one more time..

hope you can get what i mean.. im jus worry im way too cool.. now i know you are hot.. and as black as banglah.. no i dun blame you.. i blame the sun..

i neeed no slap from you.. i jus need a clap.. put ur hands up.. put ur hands up.. follow the rhythum n clap.. 1..2...3...4

looking forward to DXO.. mirage event is on the way.. dun walk mi out on saturday.. im scared of being alone.. wahahhaa..

im not lame.. im not shit.. u know wad? im jonathan..

open ur eyes wide n see.. this is all about u..

hate no school. hate no life.. everything will be fine..
dun be bored.. dun be shag..
thre is always mi to entertain.
be cool . be happy.. be ur esther tan..
i aint flirt i aint drunk
im strong and decent..
misses u? theres a chance..
pls dun be angry
or i will sad
dun b vain .. get normal
ru hua is jus a joke..
not for serious
u r too cute to be tht
screw those nags u hate
n move on
ite aint that bad.. its jus sucks
so go for sch n mug
dun scold mi bcus of this..
cus i use a blog of mine...
all this for you to see..
apprecaite and smile wif it..
everybody in pasir ris.
put your hands up..X 2
give a cheer for esther tan h.t
woOOO!!!
haha

hey hey hey...





yawnXxXxXx.... i so tired sia.. monday.. tuesday nv have enuff slp. haha.. so tring leh... alamak... hmms.. cus of a siao siao gal la.. haha... cus of her.. i slpt in AM in the morning.. a few hrs ltr wake up for sch.. arrgh.. haha..

stress siol!! haa.. cant imagine i chat wif her for so long la.. endless tings to tok abt ?? i dunno.. times flies lor.. when 1am.. i say i 2am slp... den ltr overshot.. haha.. i den say 3... haha.. in the end.. overshot again.. haha..

i wan my lollipop.. this gal owe mi ah.. whahaha

still the same old thing la!!!!



woke up halfway of my slp again.. wah piang.. sian ssssss... i wanna zzZZzzzZZ!!! arrgh. im phsycially tired, but mental.. nt tired.. seems to be working.. haha..cant stop my brain down.. it is way too pwerful haha.. nth to to.. no hp to sms.. arrgh.. now onli can blog. n listen to radio n dl songs..

wanna let my mind settle down . haha.. dun tink of anything n let mi slp!!!!

monday sch reopen... im so sian abt it.. no more fun at nite..no more late slp.. if not.. cfm = skip school.. lol

feeling weird...



feeling abit.. hmms... strange.. haa.. like something is amiss? or perhaps like sth is missing.. ahaha.. cant kip myself entertain leh.. jus feel bored n sth is short..

i went to gym as usual like 3 time a week? tink sch reopen i cant go that often .. mayb 2 times? i will ccfm go to gym to main my body.. haha.. if not.. all my effort will go dwn to drain.. lol... progress is gradualli revealing itself..

now.. again.. my hp is being fucking stolen AGAIN.. i very very piss alrdy .. wanna sms pple oso cannot.. how sia? cant live w/o hp leh.. haha.. i wanna sms.!!!

some gals said this: " we gals wanna lose wieght n wanna be slim n nice.. but why u guys like to gain weight n look bulky???" haha... contridicting ah..
some gals dun like guys to be too bulky... some gals like their bf to b muscular.. n den some dun like? how leh? headache.. confusing .. puzzling?
last time my ex say i too skinny.. but u like mi as the way im wad.. kip asking mi to gain weight.. so wad now i hv gain weight? still the same wad.. like/love mi for the way im... haha.. oh man.. i still cant get my blog out of the relationship topic.. haha..

anw.. i slowly changing. haha.. wait n see ba.. weee!!!

oh sad.. i miss the attica trip 2dae.. =(

cant seems to get a nap / slp




e-m-olicious post is rite on the way...

cant get a fucking nice slp recently.. dunno wad my mind is tinking man.. the blood vessels seems to be like cocking up wif some stuff..

wads up wif mi man... oMg!! depression is falling upon mi .. someone save mi!!!
let mi post wads in my mind ....



*---*----*----* ---*---*---*---*---*---*

i wouldnt say i love u forever... cus i believe nth can last forever.. everlasting love is jus craps n bullshit that all guys say to get the girls love or heart n wad so eva.
happy moments are oways short-lived.. everything within our sight that is wonderful mus be cherish. so i can tell u that i would nt say ; dear i love u forever... i will say: dear i will love u for every sec from now ''. . i dun believe in everlasting love as every livings die one day.. even paper can bio-degrade.. so wads the point in believing in that? no point seeking for something that dont exist. even a married loving couple's love cant last forever.. one of them will die eventually of old age living the other one behind.. jus treasure wadeva u hv got. the loves one and etc... try to make them feel their the happiest pple on earth.. if the couples can be tgt aft death, congrats!! den they can pursue their everlasting love.. onli aft death, things will everlast.

no more tearing for a gurl wch leave mi behind... wasting of energy n water resource... come on man.. SIngaopre dun even hv enuff water.. so dun waste.. lol
its is not worthwhile aft all as she did bad to u.. wads the use of crying like someone die? come on! even u cried on someones wake, the dead oso wun come alive, somemore this is a walking human... kus fcuk it n get on life.. i believe there is jus one mr n mrs rite for everyone living one earth.. like adam n eve, romeo n juliet...


romance aint practical, romance is out of track.. romance is dangerous. romance is facinating, romance is sth pple cant jus simply use words n define, romance is sth we feel and cant be seen by naked eye, valentines day is a day to let the romantic cells in our body out? nonono.. if we r happy tgt, everyday is a valentines day.. romance will jus come n filled the air around us.. there is no definite ans for romance.. we cant find an ans to it to.. diff pple ... or shud i say, diff lady got difff expectation of romance.. guys r oways the one cracking their mind thinkin wad romantic stuff to do for thier gf n even for the person the like.. why is this so? cant gurl do it for a guy? come on la.. this is 21st century.. open society for all.. wahaha..

*promises from guys are nt oways true. it usually depends. but promises are nt meant to be broken. some might say it for the sake of saying.. some might mean it. ya .. so jugde!! dun be mesmerised by sweet talks.. in the end.. blame it on the guys. lol..

im bothered by all this kinda shit.. someone pull mi out of this love n relationship stuff.. pls!!!

i find quite unqiue of this " take some chill pill" .. understand wad it means? lol.. some dumdumb, stingray gal intro mi this chill pill thing. haha.. quite funny la..

fun nite .. fun day.. woooo!



cannt imagine i had a total a fun nite at twn 2dae... is not like normal fun.. is extremely fun.. and i actuali msg someone for 4hrs plus plus plus.. haha.. ytd nite was reali fun to mi.. but may sound bored to others... i went to slack n drink at CHIPS... the beer there was fucking cheap on tuesday.. so we rank non stop.. til im high.. weird ah.. drink beer i will get high easily.. while alcohol nt that fast... but nvm la. nt high nt fun ma.. whahah.. the chicken wings there is also damn nice.. mus go there and grab a bite nxt time.. aft the drinks .. we went walking round n round orchard.. searching for a corner to slack.. and we found one.. coffee bean.. the time was about 1am plus.. we sat dwn chat.. den sth sturck our mind.. we went to took some snapple n run to ZAra n slack. haha.. aft finishing the drink. hoho.. we played rolling bottles... haah. see whos can roll dwn the stairs w/o breaking n the furthest.. but in the end.. we end up throwing the bottles la.. damn it.. haha.

soon aft this. we felt abit hungry . den we went back to coffee bean . this time round,, we spotted the frigde there isnt lock.. whahaa... god is wif us.. lol.. so we open it up.. there is good stuff inside.. tuna, ham, chicken.. lol.. we even brought bread from 7-11 to go wif that.. lol.. free food oways taste so nice.. who says that dwn into the nite there is nth to do at twn.. ITS SO NICE TO LEPAK (slack) haha.. we ate and chat happily.. lol.. too bad thre is no ice cream in the frigde.. if not it will be a wonderful meal.. lol.. till 4 plus.. that damn fat security came.. n we ran like some mad dogs jus ecaspe from the cage.. we run to 4 season hotel to hide.. lol.. panting heavily.. but it was damn happenin can...thr security gave us some entertainment ya.. lol.. aft a while ... we slowly walk back.. den saw tht guard again.. damn it la.. nid to run.. while running , im still msging that person la.. haha.. nearly knock onto a tree sia.. but nv.. phew.. exciting nite i hv..

actuali this blog of mine is emo one la.. most of the blogs are e-m-o.. this is few of the happy blogs.. lol
this post actuali wanan post some emo stuff.. but 2dae happenings make mi 4gt wd to post.. nvm.. i shud recall n post it some other day..

this gal, or lill gal,, big gal.. arrgh.. dunno la.. i jus manage to locate her jus .aft last seen at dxo was reali nice to chat la.. seldom mit this kinda.. nice to chat not = to talkative.. jus find that can click? haha.... she shud be honoured k.. lol..

E-m-o post nxt..

almost a week....



i dunno wad am i busy wif for the past one week.. haha.. nv update my blog.. recently hv been drinking at nite.. holiday now .. so bored... no part time job .. no money .. no life.. struggling to survive this time.. i hv almost rot at home everyday last weeek... till the fashion show of mooks at mos.. it was fun.. get to know some pple.

where is my dear dear fren? missing in canada? haha... i was waiting for her reply evryday ... but.. nth came into my inbox.... i missing u badly .. QUICK!! come back to singapore...

how happy how sad....




how i wish u know how i felt abt u? i happy that ur returing... im sad that i dunno wad im tinking.. im reali looking 4ward to any outing wif u ... tinking of that im reali excited.. haha.. nv seen u for dunno how long alrdy...

anw, finally my body had shown some improvement. wahaha.. i hv gained 2kg.. now my weight is 58kg.. lol... 2more kg to go man... den reach 60 my ldeal weight.. the best can add some more weight la.. den can train till fit fit.. hotu im fit now.. but not the right size i wan... lol./

reali truly... indeed

i wan to become heavier n bigger in size.. thou for the past one yr.. i hv put on weight and my muscles did grow bigger.. n i did gain abit of weight.. but thats all not enuff leh.. i wan more !! haha.. bigger n heavier.. now my weight is abt 57.5kg. my ideal weight is 60 and above sia.. when can i reach that target leh.. lol.. thou results are slowly revaeling.. im gonna gym gym gym.. train train train..

who will be my motivation? lol .. very quite some time i hv been tinking abt this gal.. how can i confess it to her? will she find ridiculous? i hardly see her leh.. she is wad i wan.. she is wad i need.. but .. how can i let her know.. reali a headache leh,, i still got one last paper on thursday. hope i can make it lor.. lol.. im trying to get close to her.. but it seems hard man.. no chance was given to mi .. she oways so busy.. perhap.. im no one close to her yet.. thats y.. i msg her oso nv reply most of the time.. but its okie la.. at least still got reply.. at least i know wads going on wif her n wads she is tinking.. luckily there is such thing AS BLOG.. can go read wad she update.. haha.. tats where i can get to know her tinking n stuff. lol.. it does hlp mi alill.. at least i msg her,, n show her my concern.. nv reply nvm,... at least she will know i care abt her lo..

hmms. hmms.. hmms..


my fren was very sad abt her hair ... i was shock too when she say her cut hair till short.. hmms.. i felt sad oso la.. her nice beautiful long hair..i will miss that.. anyway.. i have nt seen her current hairstyle. but tink wasnt that bad la... hmms... aft all is stil her wad.. dun be sad la fren .. k.. i will around to acc u for ur to grow... cheers k

today is a half happy half sad day for mi lor.. happy= a msg from someone that i wished i would recieve.. haha.. sad= no news from the sender after i reply her .. sobs sobs.. i cut my hair 2dae.. feel so cooling n light man.. hahaha.. i like it la.. hmms.. i didnt reply immediately cus i was cutting my hair .. haha.. when i replied was half an hour ltr lor.. but no news from the sender leh.. dunno why.. haha.. might be she sent to the wrong person den ltr on she den realise ba.. anw, im still happy to see her name on the sender column.. lol..
2dae went out wif mu buddies to orchard , to e2MAX. play game,, eat soya bean curd. nice supper la. haha.. im tinking of the msg thou. haha.. i tink im dead la. cnt finish my 1500 EASSY LA... how how how? deadline SUNDAY..

tink im gonna fail le la.. *weepS*

jus blog in this for fun la... i gt nth to do... sad case lor...


WOMEN. LADIES.GIRLS. aint born into this world for guys to understand..
they born into this world for guys to love, to pamper, to care, to dote. LOl
treat them wif all the love u can.. love them like u nv love before.. cus once chances are gone.. missing gone forever...

ohya.. i hv got felicia chins blog wif mi ya.. feel free to visit.. haha// ----->

end .. lol

title: this shud be the way



i reali got nth to do leh.. so damn bored la.. waiting for SOME PPLE to ask mi out la.. i hv waited for so long alrdy can... i miss my fren in canada.. faster come back n let mi hug u... lol.. thou i hv got assignment to do.. im still bored.. dunno why? i got no mood to do leh.. no inspiration oso.. hais.. wads going on wif mi man.. lol.. tinkng of sumbdy la.. haha.. my mind is filled of her la.. no matter how hard i shake my head.. she still dun wan come out.. actuali my mind / brain got ample space to store things.. but due to her.. conquering my brain space.. haha.. now my memory is running low.. die die die.. hmms..

anw, i rather u be my guardian angel than mi being urs.. cus u r the one hu makes mi slow down my footsteps n appreciate the beautiful things around... u nake it so wonderful. u beautify n complete my world.!! ( nice? haa.. dun gt mistaken.. tis isnt for any1 yet.. im still waiting for the gal wch makes it worthwhile for mi to say this to her.. i tink this phrase grow mouldy , it still hvnt come out of my mouth. haha)

title: satisfy is wad i wanna see nowadays!!!



i seriously duno wads up in my frens mind . he jus got attach abt mth.. and now he is showing us stunts again.. NV see his gf for 10 days.. his gf was like missing him like hell la... how cud he bear to do tis to his love one? for mi.. i wudden.. denfintely.. n he say.. he wanna brk up.. i was like .. WTH! AGAIn? the previous one is abt the same thing... being tgt for awhile den feeling fade.. come on la.. den why in the 1st place wanna be tgt n now brks the gals heart? fren ah fren.. i can tell the gal truly loves u la.. she even initiated to msg u liao.. saying she is missing u badly.. but u dun even reply her.. why sia? i reali dunno wad to say man.. wad u mean by she can get a better man, n u can get a better gal? she is gd enuff... u cant say she is short den lidat treat her wad.. i can sense tat she is damn sad la.. wake up fren.. be satisfy la.. pls consider carefully before u do anything k... she is reali a nice gal .. i tink u can tell la hor.. i cant interfere much oso.. all depends on u..
i hv gt 2 kinds of frens.. one is wad i mentioned above.. the other type is chi qing. 3 mths n yet my the other fren cant gt over a gal wch treat him badly.. hais.. i stress out alrdy la.. facing this 2 kind of pple.. i myslef oso cant be any better la.. im single.. i cant say much.. CHEERS!!!

this one is funny. Come ON READ IT!

ENGLISH PHRASE.................................CHINESE TRANSLATION

1)."That's not right".................................Sum Ting Wong

2)."Are you harboring a fugitive?"........Hu Yu Hai Ding

3)."See me ASAP"....................................Kum Hia Nao

4)."There goes Stupid Man"...................Dum Dum Wa King

5)."Small Horse"......................................Tai Ni Po Ni

6)."Did you go to the beach?"................Wai Yu So Tan

7)."I bumped into a coffee table"..........Ai Bang Mai Ni

8)."I think you need a face lift"............Chin Tu Fat

9)."It's very dark in here".....................Wao So Dim

10)."I thought you were on a diet"......Wai Yu Mun Ching

11)."This is a tow away zone"...............No Pah King

12)."Our meeting is next week"..........Wai Yu Kum Nao

13)."Staying out of sight!"....................Lei Ying Lo

14)."He's cleaning his automobile"......Wa Shing Ka

15)."Your body odor is offensive".......Yu Stin Ki Pu

16)."Great".............................................Su Pah

17)."Your price is too high"..................No Bai Nut Ding

18)."Has your flight been delayed?".....Hao Long Wei Ting?

19)."They have arrived".......................Hia Dei Kum

20)."I got this for free".........................Ai No Pei

21)."You know Macarena lyrics?".......Wai Yu Sing Dum Song?

22)."Stay out of sight"...........................Lei lo

this is shud be the story.

like wad i hv mentioned in my past posting., gals shud be pampered n dote. rather than hurting them n make them tear.. i cant bear to see them tear la. esp the one i love / like.. i will do anything to maje them luff.. i mentioned b4 long ago in my blog le.. i still hvnt change. haha. some of my guys fren say tat we shudden pamper gals for no reasons.. den i was like thinking" why mus got motive leh?' den tat doesnt come from the bottom of hearts liao wad.. alamak..gals to mi r like rubies.. gal that i love is like DIAMONDS like.. i will dote on her. shower her wif all my attention n time.. haha.. pampering r jus like polishing..

i agree that gals shudden be spoil.. but that doest mean to neglect them wad. haha..

i was stunt by my frens response when he knows i got felicia chins contact.. wahhaha

im now blur la.. dunno wad to do leh.. shud i tell the gal i like her? i seriously duno. as i fail 8 out of 10.. i reali got no more confidence to confess le.. untill im reali reali sure.. all frens encourage mi to say.. but can they understand my situation? hais.

i rather protect her in the dark n see her spending her veryday safe n sound. n ofcus happily. pple say being love is much moer fortunate than giving love. so i wan her to hv the fortunate.

wad best for her is best for mi.. haha.

im stil waitng the right tiime to say to her" i love u"

hope it wun too late

it doesnt matter!!

i tink it reali doesnt matter to mi anyhow for spending alone w/o a gf? haha... recently i read a frens blog saying abt men. haha.. tats was a funny one.. n its onli 50% true la. im a man myself . lol.. im nt biased or wad la.. jus tat not all guys r liddat lor.. its jus the matter of time and fate for male n female to reali find one rite one for them to hug to cling to stick to each other for long long long time la..so both sexes reali try hard to find their MR n MRS right to spend their life wif.. gals can say tat the encounter jerks.. wad shud we guys tat face the same situation called women? both guys n gals encounter will be almost the same.. some reali got their good gf n bf.. so we will ask.. "when will be our turn?" i will ask this silly question myself,, all i can do is wait n wait.. actuali.. i miss out a chance last time that i reeali regretted it.. but wads the use.. that was my secondary sch time thou.. haha.. recently., the memories for that time run into my mind out of the blue.. i even dreamt of it.. it was sweet thou.. but that can onli be appear in dreams.. in fact .. in reality.. im still a single guy whom nobdy wans.. haha.. casualty of reality. haha

no blames la.. haa. one way love is so miserable la.. hope the gal im tinking now will be happy.. haha

why?

my blog is rotting alrdy la.. haha.. so long nv update.. anyway, there will be no one visiting it oso la.. im so so damn busy this few weeks lor.. hais.. n i oso dunno wad to update in here. no mood for all this thing leh.. got this fren of mine suddenly confessed to mi n say that she llikes mi since sec school. i was like huH? wTH!! after so long den u tell mi? but i wasnt happy when i heard tat.. i was so stress abt it can.. i reali dunno wad to tell her la.. i dun like to hurt pple esp gals lor.. i rather im the one get hurt wch oways happen. haha.. i say " wah lao.. this time die liao la.." haha.. n out of the blue she reali take mi as her bf.. n ask mi go fetch her n stuff.. n go see her parents?? i was like WTF.. the 1st converstion on fone we had aft 4 yrs u act like tt.. it was damn scary la.. i wanna to test out but.. i reali cant accpet as her character n other things real clash wif mi .. i dun wanna gif her fasle hope. i reali dunno wad to say to her.. i was struggling la.. at that moment of time till now.. n even b4 that conversation.. someone had stolen my heart.. but the sad thing is she dun even knows la.. even she knows.. i tink the outcome is i dun get her.. i oways gif out sth wch i dun get back any return.. i mean as in like the person i like or love doesnt knows it or even dun even apprecaite it.. wad i get is nth i dun wan .. wad a f u life can.. tink last time i had did sth wrong to a gal ba.. she was like so gd n good character. i dunno wad was i tinking at the point of time n age.. mayb i was young.. i now regretted it.. i wanted the gal to know.. that time i didnt bluff u.. and that time i reali do like u.. but everything is too late now .. hope things will turn out the best for u n for mi..

title: rotting.. spoiling... dying..

im dying.. rotting la.. my blog is rotting wif mi... wahahaha...anyway.. im still waiting patiently for the right one to bump into mi.. or i shall put it that way. im searching for the dream gal of mine? aiyo.. im confuse now la.. i dunno wad im facing now oso... waitng or searching i oso dunno.. actuali im tired alrdy.. gals wif mi are nv serious la.. im reali tried... when can i gt a gal i like n can last ? when??

slowly losing faith alrdy....

sch is fun .. i rather go sch den stay at home now.. 2nd week of sch is still fun.. but there is assignment liao.. lol .. hope everything will be fun

TITLE: im back for FOC!!!


woOT!! FOC was damn fun n high lA!!!!! kinda miss it now. lol... hmms.. all the pple in thier was fun . i knew quite a few new frens in tne camp la.. i felt so reluctant to go hme on the last day man.. im joining it nxt yr again .. 100%
actuali.. hais.. home was jus another misery place for mi la.. so bored n so nosiy.. full of my mums nagginn scolding.. very sian one leh.. despressing la... i rather go camp n stay lor.. n i miss MAHJONG!!! wahahahah

i dunno why i suddenly tink back of the past eh..im still lingering in the past.. WHY!? im reali tying to get it over.. im trying to kip myself busy alrdy... i un wan stay in the past anymore,,, tinking of it.. it was so fustrating again.. alamak.. actuali i jus nid a understanding gf.. tts all i ask for.. is it too difficult? haha.. i got one gal-fren hu say that love is troublesome n are for losers.. guys sucks n nvr kip their promises... i oso think the same way as her... but im refering to gals.. actuali overall.. is we had nt MIT out miss n MR RIGHT... the time isnt rite yet... dun gif up jus liidat lor... actuali nth last forever in this world i can say. so jus fuck it.. lol.. sumtimes u giv in 101% into a relationship.. u may nt get back as much,. so why mus we ??? i seriously dun understand.... i recently rea a love novel wch my frej say its nice.. yup.. its NICE.. but i wonder can real life be wad is happening in the book? the book is jus fiction n words describing!!! wads happing inside was so sweet n nice... hope i can bring wads inside the book to the real world la.. haha.. i mus be dat dreaming.. lol... i wana to tell my that gal-fren.. dun becus a few stupid guys n tink that way.. love isnt for losers is for pple hu know how to appreciate n tastes it.. nt like those stupid pple hu spoil it? understand? hop u get a chance to read my blog ba.. open ur eyes big big lor.. dun us use ur ears la.. haha.. love can be wonderul.. HEHEE

*love*fate*trust*faith*cherish* is almost all the ingredients for a wonderful love

title: is this ?

is this my fate? why i cant owaYS get wad i wish for.. n wad i wanted.. hais. im confused im puzzled .. shud i continue.. ? she knows how i feel towards her.. and why sud this be the situation im facing now leh.. so fan la.. hahaa.. i cant even pass my exam.. thou i onli fail one.. i feel that im a failure liao leh.. i felt sad for both of my frens lor.. both become very EMO bcus of thier love ones... the world is changing la.. now gals r diff from the past n guys r diff from the past too..

hope my frens can get over it!!!!

title: today is the day!!!


i hv tink n struggle so long and finally made up my mind to make it today.. i hv lots of things to do for today.. its my sister wedding today.. sort of the offical one.. wahahaha... n other thing wch onli concerns mi i hv to clear.. make it or daunt it.. its all up to today.. i seriously dunno wad will be the outcome like. ofcus i hope it will be smooth lorx.. den i will be happy like hell. if fail.. hohohoho.. god bless mi den..

i dunno seh.. sth like got hope.. den sth like got nuts at all.. alamak la.. why leh? is this reeali that hard? i dun get it at all man.. the truth is i got no confidence la.. this is oways happening to mi la.. how can i overcome this? setbacks reali does affect mi much from the past .. i wanna get out of this .. anyone will be able to hlp mi? like one of my buddies. he loves a gal lots.. n he sacrifices alots for this gal.. in the end .. he got nth out of it.. ya i know.. there is no sacrifices in love. but i totally feel sorry n unworth for him.. till now he still cant get over it.. im wondering whats gal n hows gals are thinking nowadays. r they out to play or wad.. perhaps nt all gals r liddat.. pls show mi some hu r not !!!!!

title: can i?

i tinking im falling into it again.. true i say i wun... but i stil cant control myself . but i tink tis is only a one sided thing la.. im nt sure hows the oppssite is tinking.. now i onli can goon step by step lor.. ytd jus wnet out wif her.. the 1st time la.. din do much ting lor.. jus walk around n play pool lor.. had fun la.. thats for mi.. but i dunno did she hv fun.i jus know that she is very tired.. haha.. now my sis is married,. left onl mi n my bros.. getting one pple less.. hmms.. kinda bored.. i duno i can get on wif it ( get into a relationship). overall is a one sided thing.. aft so some set backs, im losing myslf away. reali i swear.. i nid sum1 to pull mi back!!! im waiting..


to: KELLY ( DOnalD) cum (piGGY)

haha.. i know u wun read my blog one.. so.. nvm.. jus a write for u luh k.. i can see that u r tired la ..thanx for accompanying mi lor.. sriously thanx alot ah.. den .. hope u hv fun uh..hmms.. tats all.. try to get more slp n EXCERISE MORE!!! hahaha

title: haning in the mid air

GOSH!!!!! AM i Doing experiencin it again? not again ba? omg la.. cannot leh.. i dun wan !!!!! i dun wan to be stuck leh.. how sia!!!! can sum1 tell mi ornt? hmms... its oways like tat .. later i misunderstand den gao lat man. but the reaction she gif, the words she say, the feel she gif mi.. all n all.. i seriously dunno.
i got the ugre everday to msg her.. tok to her.. but in the i control myself.. haha..
i knew tis is impossble to be happening la.. mi n her oso impossible de lor..
now i oso dunno wad i want lor.. i seriously dunno .. im still thinking is this something to go for.. or it is jus another poisonous temptation? haha.. frm the appearance, dun look like la.. but within it. keke.. i dunno lor..
i tink i shall wait n see how ba...

title: wads more?

wah piang.. lose money in blackjack.. sian leh
500 plus leh.. all my plans was spoiled la.. sian la.. hmms.. has been drinking n drinking lor.. reali lah,. turning into a nitelife person liao la.. slp in the day.. go out in the evening till next day. haha.. omg can .. lol.. like tht spend alot of money oso leh.. struggling wif my feeling leh.. very confuse la. hais.. hving low morale now le.. my surrounding is changing liao.. people i fac, places i go, things i face, i seriously dunno wad i want now, wad i want to do.. i spend my time aimlessly.. can sum1 save mi? i did sumtiing in the past .. i kind of neglect my brothers when i hv gf.. IM SORRY BROS!!! when i dwn.. thanx to them... reali.. i tink i WUN do it agian la.. i SUMPA man.. lol.. but dunno why ah.. sum pple lose money outside ah... come bros hus n win their money to cover his debt .. wtf is it.. i seriouslu cant tahan this kinda pple man.. eat shit la ..

title:slowly becoming a nitelife person

hmms.. ytd went to drink again.. tis kinda nitelife was a paradise.. ever since the brkup.. i was gradualli changing.. hmms.. i kinda enjoy it la.. go clubbing n drink wif my bros.. den at times go jio gals n dance lol,.. nt bad la.. overall haha.. thou i spend alot of money . haha..

bo bian la.. i wan faster get my license man,, if not oways on cab.. very chor bei la.. hhaha..

tis friday n sat goin club mayb.. COME ON MOS N DXO!!!!!

Title: i was so drunk

haha.. ytd went DXO to club.. hmms.. was celebrating a frens bdae jus know on that day de la..
lol... hmms.. ytd was so high n happening la.. so long nv liddat liao.. now i jus my life is changing n im changing..

so sian.. ytd was drunk la.. haha.. nvm.. frens bdae ma.. hmms.. drink my heaRT oUT.. but Dxo was damn hot la.. n more guys den gals.. LOL..

wanna jio gal oso cannot.. sian.. lol.. nvm.. there is oways nxt time.. hehe...

title: hhmmms..

spend valentines day alone.. haha.. studying for last paper.. hope i can pass wor.. i did other thing oso. i did my confession to sum1.. haha.. i last time din reali had the chance to tell her.. so on this day.. i made it.. i dun wan to live my life in regrets . haha.. alot of regrets ah.. haha.. no choice la.. i dunno reali how to express myself de lah even if i reali love sumting... tats my bad point ba.. lose out in it..

im going to makeover myself le lor.. haha.. shaving my hair aft chinese new year.. nt totaly bald ah.. jus change lor.. see myself till sian liao.. haha .. tm,l end paper liao.. havoc ah. now i jus pray i can live happily.. n everyting run smoothly wif mi.. be wif 1 one i luv n last last last.. hais...

i going to chiong gym man... work out my body ... i wan to BE FIT!!!!
a new mi is on the way....

title: YAY

finally.. i see some reults man.. i got abit bigger aft going gym.. nt wasted la.. i will continue man..

oMG la.. i jus let it all out le leh.. haiyo.. why mus she ask mi leh.. shudden had tell.. say le oso no diff... wait lor. bo bian. let it out mayb better ba.
so sian lo.. nth to do.. back to my normal life liao.. now got money le la.. can spend.. dun nid worry lor.. haha..
jus came here to write.. tata

title: finaLLY,


YAY!!! finally everythng is out of my mind lor.. now wanna hv a NEW LIVE NEW GOAL NEW TARGET.. since thats wad has happen.. den learn to live wif it lor.. haha.. no choice.. hmms.. i wun hate her or wad la.. i wan to thank her lor.. i hv learn alot seriously for the past four mths.. im sad in the beginning cus this relationship reali bring mi happy times.. but now.. i had let it go.. im a guy man.. cannot be so girly la.. seriously.. tinking that. im abit stupid lot.. no point turning back ma.. for wad sia.. there is stil future.. haha..im 19 liao.. mus know how to tink . hmms.. i relai get it tru liao man.. hoho.. happy for mi everyone? haha.. hmms. at 1st i look at those pics i took wif her, i will cry n sad, but now.. haha.. i will smile.. dunno why.. hmm.. sad oso no point la .. seriously..

title: end...

no matter wad i wish for now, there is no use liao.. hais.. wadever is love? i reali dunno.. i reali did my best to save this relationship.. but all i hear is no NO NO!! i oways tot that my gf is the onli thing, onli morale support i can get, the onli soul i can rely on when im facing all sorts of trouble, yes.. i did put my fustration on u.. yes, my attitude is bad, but i didnt do it on purpose, i treat u as my close one, tats why i behave this way... if cant possible vent it on anyone. cus i treat u as my love one. but why use this as an reason to brkup. is there reali no things to let u stay.. i love ur everythng , i didnt change to suit the love she is gifing mi, i jus hope she will be happy wif mi , tats all.. i dont change simply for anyone..everybody will change., its onli the matter of time. b4 i do anything, i will tink of her 1st.. is it wrong to treat her this way? m i? my september fairytale finally ended., i seriously i tot it can last, cus i love her wif all i had, witout leaving her behind, she jus tink of the bads, why cant she use the goods to cover it up and perserve abit more to let mi have the time to slowly prove to her she reali mean alot to mi. i reali have my peace of mind when she say she wum n nv tink of brking wif mi.. is it all lie? all saying it when we r in the sweetest moment,? i mean everyting i say to her, i reali do.
tinking bad, i was very very happy when she agreed tobe my gal. i was hoping up n dwn , reasing my frens.. now is the totally opposite, perhaps im reeali in wrong to treat her tis way i hv stayed up 5 nites, 2 nites playing mahjong wif my frens, i cant slp, i saw her when i close my eyes,, my heart has lost its place, my soul has lose its way, i tink tis may last quite awhile, if she is reali that misery being wif mi, i wil let her go, to let her have the best of wad she want, i jus want her to be happy, even this has happen.i still love her. reali i do ..
wad i can do is living wif regrets... with the tears she sehd for mi lingering in my heart

to ; han
i hv learn to watch u in the far, miss u bit by bit . lesser each day
i hope u have ur best life in the future
thanx for letting mi hv a sweet memory
i will always rmb that..

im back finally aft so so so long.. i tink i got depression leh. feeling sad . oso duno why? im worry my gf might go 1 day. we have been tgt for 4mths +. we have our hppy times and sad times oso..n ofucs. mos of all is happy times.. but recently.. i feel sth is changing leh.. she had change? i duno leh. hais. so sian abt it. so stress oso.. duuno wad to do.. can anyone tell mi?

i jus to be like b4.. our september times....