title: end...

no matter wad i wish for now, there is no use liao.. hais.. wadever is love? i reali dunno.. i reali did my best to save this relationship.. but all i hear is no NO NO!! i oways tot that my gf is the onli thing, onli morale support i can get, the onli soul i can rely on when im facing all sorts of trouble, yes.. i did put my fustration on u.. yes, my attitude is bad, but i didnt do it on purpose, i treat u as my close one, tats why i behave this way... if cant possible vent it on anyone. cus i treat u as my love one. but why use this as an reason to brkup. is there reali no things to let u stay.. i love ur everythng , i didnt change to suit the love she is gifing mi, i jus hope she will be happy wif mi , tats all.. i dont change simply for anyone..everybody will change., its onli the matter of time. b4 i do anything, i will tink of her 1st.. is it wrong to treat her this way? m i? my september fairytale finally ended., i seriously i tot it can last, cus i love her wif all i had, witout leaving her behind, she jus tink of the bads, why cant she use the goods to cover it up and perserve abit more to let mi have the time to slowly prove to her she reali mean alot to mi. i reali have my peace of mind when she say she wum n nv tink of brking wif mi.. is it all lie? all saying it when we r in the sweetest moment,? i mean everyting i say to her, i reali do.
tinking bad, i was very very happy when she agreed tobe my gal. i was hoping up n dwn , reasing my frens.. now is the totally opposite, perhaps im reeali in wrong to treat her tis way i hv stayed up 5 nites, 2 nites playing mahjong wif my frens, i cant slp, i saw her when i close my eyes,, my heart has lost its place, my soul has lose its way, i tink tis may last quite awhile, if she is reali that misery being wif mi, i wil let her go, to let her have the best of wad she want, i jus want her to be happy, even this has happen.i still love her. reali i do ..
wad i can do is living wif regrets... with the tears she sehd for mi lingering in my heart

to ; han
i hv learn to watch u in the far, miss u bit by bit . lesser each day
i hope u have ur best life in the future
thanx for letting mi hv a sweet memory
i will always rmb that..